Monday, June 30, 2008

#304.

SPAIN WON!!

WOOTS WOOTS WOOTS!

lol.
today damn hyper, dunno why.
hahha.

anyway,
just received a belated birthday present.
omfg,
it's a BIG BIG WU GUI! ((((((((((((((((((((((:

im effing tired,
cuz blogger keeps dying on me while posting photos.
hahaha.

and that IDIOT better stop IDIOT-ing meOKAY.
if not i jue jiao then he know. HAHAHA.

tired.
off to bed!

"Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst."
-English Proverb

#303.

ALERT!
LOTS OF PHOTOS!

THE LONG-AWAITED BIRTHDAY PHOTO UPDATE.
LOL.


Mozart choco from jude. HAHA. i told him i preferred CHOPIN. LOLOL.

see this mushroom! from jun. LOL

from daddy! :D he refused to buy me heels. HAHAHA.

this book's from mummy. omfg, i love this book man.

from my dearest bestie! HAHA.

from JINHWEE! :DD



daddy said this wrapping makes it look like ... HAHA.

that was what happened when bowling alleys were all booked! pftbh.













I SOOOO LOVE THIS LA. who'll buy this for me next year? HAHA.





SEE THEY EMO! HAHAHA.

FATHER'S DAY!


chocolate and raspberry slice. NICE OKAY, mai siao siao. LOL

aunt flo. :DD

brother sibei act cute can. LOL.

MUMMY! her hand looks kinda kek cuz she injured it. HAHAHA.

the 4 fathers cutting my cake! LOL.

i was so embarassed. HAHAHA.

DADDY, AUNT FLO, JESLYN's BDAY CELEBRATION.


HAHAHHAH!!

daddy&i! :DDDDDDD

see why i love her so much? HAHA.

AHHH OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. SOOOOOO CUTE!

wasted girly slept. justin blew on her behalf. LOL.

BANGKOK!


group photo before the TAKE OFF. LOL.

i was pissed by dunno what. cant remember. HAHA.
granny so big sia, sit on chair.

see my retarded swimming coach?!

we were figuring out the way to the market. HAHAHA.

AHAHAHAHHAHA. uncle raymond should join HOLLYWOOD. LOL.

brother isnt as good. HAHA.

at some temple. hahaha.

granny's making me shorter by the day. HAHA.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

#302.

I FEEL LIKE IM TRAVELLING BACK TO 1939!

it's been history continously for 2 days,
and ALL ABOUT HITLER.
omfg, i hate hitler!
I HATE HITLER!!!!

luckily he's dead,
otherwise i wouldnt live.
LOLOL.

apparently he COMMITTED SUICIDE.
HAHAHAHA,
what a waste.
he's soooooo cute. HAHA.
omgomgomg, im going mad.

was making notes yesterday,
when azhar's slides had this point which said,
"Hitler was not confident of taking over Poland because he knew Britain&France would not resist him."
ROFLMAO!
i was really confused,
asked hock,
but he also dunno.
HAHA.
so in the end had to sms ju again.
and she said she would get back to me.
THT WAS LAST NIGHT.
what happened?
she got back to me only this morning.
HAHHA.

anywayyyyyy,
im seriously getting bored.
BORED BORED BORED.
it's SUNDAY AFTERNOON,
EVERYONE'S WORKING, STUDYING, whatsoever,
omfg. im really BORED.

okay,
brother's bored too.
and he seems even bored-er than me.
he's like climbing our house gate.
HAHAHAAHA.
okay, i promised him to play o2jam with him,
no more procrastination. :D

This quote is for mister fitri. :D
i hope you do get what im talking about. LOL

"People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
-H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

#301.

"i love you, in a really really big pretend to like your taste in music,
let u eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head
outside your window. unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you.
so pick me, choose me, love me."

#300.

"If it is peace you want, seek to change yourself, not other people. It is easier to protect yourself with slippers than to carpet the whole earth."
-Anthony De Mello

#299.

i feel so ashamed of myself,
going below my level to argue with people like them.

i know you disapprove of me doing so.
but it really irks me to see someone insulting my sister.
imagine she say things like
"mother f*cking b*tch",
and "when you die no one will come to your funeral."
so please dont be mad at me okay.

i know it's below my maturity level to be bothered with them.
not to worry,
my family and studies are still the most important.
in fact, this has to happen becuz of my family member.
so dont be mad alrighty? (:

#298.

FOR GOODNESS' SAKES,
I DONT NEED YOU TO TELL ME HOW TO MAKE FRIENDS.
I DONT NEED YOU TO BOTHER,
I DONT NEED YOU TO CARE.

I THINK YOU NEED TO BOTHER ABOUT YOURSELF,
BEFORE YOU CARE ABOUT US.
ESP THE THREE OF US.
WE LIVE OUR LIVES,
NO NEED YOU TO INTERRUPT.

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went for tuition this morning,
mister looked at me cheekily.
i expected him to suan me,
SINCE HE DID SO YTD.
but he didnt. :DDDDDDDDD
he crapped with me,
and then i asked him for my papers,
he ACTED BLUR.
gave me a shock.
luckily he had it,
or UNluckily.

LOTS OF ENGLISH WORKSHEETS,
and HISTORY! omgomgomgomg.

have been feeling better,
no longer throwing up,
though a teeny weeny bit of nausea is there,
but i've seemed to lost all appetite.

AFEEQ SAYS I LOSE 2KG, I'LL GAIN 10kG WHEN I GET WELL! >.<

and mummy is finally gonna burn me those damn pictures i've waited for damn long.
will post them later i guess.
LOL.

"Success is getting what you want; happiness is wanting what you get."
-Dale Carnegie

Friday, June 27, 2008

#297.



高脚杯里 你的唇印 盖上冷漠刺青
是一张心碎证明

冷风过境 收进心底 痛苦无力防御
手一摊就被占据

脱罪的话你可以 说了千遍还不腻
听到的和感觉到的有差距

放过自己 放过压抑
放过整片浮生的记忆
往事痛击 孤单侵袭 习惯就可以

感情的戏 我没演技
赢不了你温柔挑衅
只好丢弃 只好不回应
用沉默反击

逃生的路会在哪里
我要自由 不要窒息
曾经以为你就是氧气
原来只是闹剧
爱过一场 输得彻底


高脚杯里 你的唇印
盖上冷漠刺青 是一张心碎证明

冷风过境 收进心底
痛苦无力防御 手一摊就被占据

脱罪的话你可以 说了千遍还不腻
听到的和感觉到的有差距
放过自己 放过压抑
放过整片浮生的记忆
往事痛击 孤单侵袭 习惯就可以
感情的戏 我没演技
赢不了你温柔挑衅
只好丢弃 只好不回应
用沉默反击

逃生的路会在哪里

我要自由 不要窒息

曾经以为你就是氧气
原来只是闹剧
爱过一场 输得彻底

放过自己 放过压抑
放过整片浮生的记忆
往事痛击 孤单侵袭 喜欢就可以
感情的戏 我没演技
赢不了你温柔挑衅
只好丢弃 只好不回应

用沉默反击

#296.

I LOST 2KG AFTER ALL THESE!

happy or sad,
i dun know.

cuz it's really torturing.
im like having gastric pain 24/7.
like WTF.
i cant even eat anything decent.
cant drink normally,
otherwise i would throw up.
i have to drink SIP BY SIP,
and it's getting me pissed off.
I DONT HAVE PATIENCE FOR THAT!

and granny just gave me alot of rice.
omfg.
hell for me now.
ARGH.

word of comfort, (LOL)
neighbour bought me stuff that can help in my baking!
LOL.
it's comforting for me okay.
haha.

I REALLY FEEL LIKE THROWING UP.
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

#295.

im freaking bored man.

been catching up on my show,
since i missed it at night,
and daddy dont allow me to watch it.
he says i've been sleeping late,
that's why i could fall sick.

so when granny and i finish the series,
we can all sleep at 10!
HAHA.

now that i finally finished a bottle of juice,
my stomach feels uneasy again.
and i dont dare to eat,
cuz i dont wanna vomit man.
LOL.


omgomggg, i suddenly remembered i have to decide whether to drop dnt!
hahaha.
i feel so bad towards chang.
one whole month never go back,
he didnt even scold me.
he still kept persuading me to stay.
sigh.

okay, granny's out already,
back to my show! xDD

#294.

BOO HOO.

still vomited after medication,
and i couldnt even eat.

mummy forced me to go for the jab.
!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*

doc gave another mc,
advised me not to go to school today.
[JUNAINAH IS SO GONNA KILL ME.]

took some medicine,
and later at night,
i vomited it out.

cannot sleep in peace the entire night,
kept waking up between hours.

woke up just now,
tried some juice,
and i hope i dont vomit it out again.

SIGH.
i hate this man.
and now im contemplating whether to go for tuition.
What if i suddenly have to vomit?
HAHA.

granny is nagging at me now,
say i very wan pi. keep playing comp. >.<

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts."
-Albert Einstein

Thursday, June 26, 2008

#293.

SICK.

as i am typing this, my energy is depleting.

omfg. i took hours to type this.
my head is spinning,

went to the doc just now,
and he wanted to give me an injection!
lucky i refused.
HAHA.

thanks hock, jing, bev, varian, erdie, afeeq, eugene, jinhwee, bryce and many more for their concern. :)

still contemplating whether to go school tomorrow.
no energy to walk,
no energy to write,
no energy to do anything.
sigh.

heard i missed alot on hist today,
they finished that topic!
pftbh.

whatever im doing,
my stomach is making LOTS of noises.
doc says there's alot of reaction in it.
OMFG.

"It's not stress that kills us, it is our reaction to it."
-Hans Selye

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

#292.

Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way.

#291.

Changed my blog song,
and i know it sounds kinda OLDIE.
i had the same feeling when i first heard it.
ESPECIALLY the starting.

BUT as the song plays and as the singer sings,
it gets me kinda tensed up.
i cannot explain the reason for that,
but the song,
esp the chorus,
makes me tensed and somehow feel like crying. LOL

the lyrics may play only a SMALL part,
but it's the harmony and pace that gets me emotional.
HAHA.

maybe by listening to it more often,
you'll also feel the same way as me.
haha.
dont be impatient and give up listening!
the best is always at the back.
:D

dammit!
the sudden change in weather
has cause me tummyache!
)))))))):

#290.

SHIOK.

slept for about one hour during the free maths period,
and i really enjoyed the sleep.
after that felt energetic like normal already.

yesterday slept only like 12am,
and it was really unbearable.
i just couldnt open my eyes.

and for whatsoever reason,
i didnt bring my hist textbook,
so amirul, hock and i had to stand.
and there was a new teacher who came to listen to the lesson,
and the guys couldnt keep their eyes to themselves.
LOL.

amaths,
received LOADS of worksheets. T.T

and i had fun during lunch break.
both hands kena whacked until swollen sia.
and AFEEQ used my phone to sms wanjing,
"wanjing, i love you very much. :)"
and she really thought it was me.
LIKE WTH.
HAHA.
eugene then used her phone to sms hock a similar sms,
but HE CLEVERLY used me to press the send button.
and PUSHED everything to me.

they then used this signal on me,
and we were laughing about it,
and SHE still wanted to know what we were talking about.
WTF man.

ah yes,
uncle jack just told me to go down to the pool to collect my shirts.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i told him,
mummy wanted him to bring some ah gua back,
he said he could have brought a dozen back for us.
like FOR WHAT?
display ah? HAHAHAHA.

and I WANNA SLEEP!!
sigh. )):

"To love and win is the best thing; to love and lose, the next best."
-William Makepeace Thackeray

Monday, June 23, 2008

#289.

I'M REALLY TIRED.

one late night has caused me to be tired like anything.
tired to walk, tired to stand, tired to eat, tired to chew.
tired of everything.

everywhere i go, my eyes feel like shutting.

anyway, today was the first day of school.
many teachers left,
and double th amount of teachers were posted to our school.
LOL.

anyway,
wanjing got caught for wearing some striking stuff,
and i couldnt stop laughing man.
HAHAHA.
i wish i could just blog about it man.
soooo funny! :DDDDDDDDDD

and we had some free periods,
we were talking about everything,
and isk dunno why,
today damn bad sia.
keep suan-ing jing,
hock & i chipped in to suan her too.
then got really tired,
then both of us chatted.
then happened to talk about the show,
and we were laughing our asses off man.
LOL.

right after school,
went home to change and met ricky.
we then went to geylang.. FOR DIM SUM.
HAHAHA.
kinda scary, afterall my first time going there without my family.
but it's not as far as i expected.
wanted to eat rocher beancurd,
but was too full.
so bought back for granny,
and I GOT SOME TOO. HAHAHA.

gonna do english,
and IM really gonna sleep early tonight.
i cannot afford to sleep late aldy.
HAHA.

"To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful."
-Anonymous

#288.

I've finished my ss!
:DDDDDDDD
like now. 12.46am.
omfg.
dunno how im gonna wake up tmr.
shit man!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

#287.

DAY WASTED.

got forced to wake up by granny,
at 7AM!!!! pftbh.
anyway, went to aunt flo's house,
and slept there till like 10am. HAHA.
brunch-ed at some noodle house at jalan besar,
went back and watched like 3 movies. LOL

then slacked, and day was gone!
brought work there, but too lazy to do. (SIGH.)
had dinner with eric,
went back to the same fish head steamboat place.
meanwhile was contemplating to going to golden mile for steamboat tmr,
but then decided on dimsum at geylang.

okay,
i SERIOUSLY have to do my ss.
and im so gonna do it now,
then watch my video.

NO MORE PROCRASTINATING! >.<

"So of cheerfulness, or a good temper, the more it is spent, the more it remains."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

#286.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINHWEE! :))))

Saturday, June 21, 2008

#285.

OKAY,
i've just wasted 60minutes on my blog.
but at least i like it better than the previous.
xDDDDDDDDDD

and then i used my blog,
experimented with wanjing,
on whether this looks good or not.
I HOPE NO ONE SAW THOSE !
lol.

anyway,
went back to YMH to help godpa with the registration,
initially wanted jenna's service (LOL),
but she was kinda busy.
so CC did it instead.
and then THIS IS REALLY COOL.
fitri this part timer has GOTTEN HIS NAMECARD
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
omfg, i cant.
and then i realised
one of the good looking guys from plaza sing
came to tamp to work. like WOAH,
why didnt he come earlier?! HAHAHA.

the place is changed again.
without ronald, without alvin.
without aaron, without liza.
it seems so different when i entered.
no amy, no felicia, (MELVIN AND FITRI DONT MATTER. =P)
sigh.

but im still rather pleased.
at least i've made some good friends there,
and left my mark there. LOL.

karine spoke to me,
tell me study hard,
teach at yamaha.
like WTF la.
oh whatever.
dont wish to talk about her anymore.

okay, i dont know what's gonna happen to me tomorrow,
but i know i should go to my darling bolster now.
TATA.

and im so not gonna wait for fitri to finish shitting.
he probably constipated.
oops,
he just replied me. xD

#284.

HALF OF THE PICTURES.
these came from bev's phone,
my camera's not burnt yet! >.< sneaky beverley took this without me realising.
ah yes. this cutey ducky and champagne roses came from jinhwee.
thanks alot man! XD

we were really bored. really bored. HAHA.
i was more of laughing than smiling. HAHAHAHA.
lots of thankyou-s to wanjing. I KNOW HER MANGO IS NICER,
BUT THERE'S NO NEED FOR HER TO BE SO ATTENTIVE! LOL

THIS IS HOW I LOOKED WHEN I GOT PISSED AT THE CATCHING TOY MACHINE.
MORE TO COME. xD

#283.

TAKE CARE RONALD. )):

call or sms me whenever you need me,
i'll be there for you k. (:
i promise.

#282.

I've got this impulse to change my blog song.

THANKS TO BEV,
she got me addicted to this show.
it's effing funny.
now granny thinks im mad,
laughing at my desktop.
LOL.

anyway,
this song sounds so impressionist,
and it sounds like what scott joplin would compose! LOL
and that singer's tongue must be really short.
can sing so quickly.
omfg. my tongue would tie i think.
HAHA.

had an nasty encounter with a lizard couple of days back,
and it has caused me to be afraid to go into the kitchen at night.

that night,
i was raiding the refrigerator,
when a lizard ran out from the back of th fridge.
i slammed the doors of the freezer,
and the lizard stopped where it was.
i stopped moving, and stared at it.
we didnt move for like 10 minutes.
i then shouted for mummy, but she didnt bother! ))):
then i decided it wasnt logical to keep standing there,
i decided to run pass it and out of the kitchen and to mummy's room.
so i was like "1,2, run!"
and when i ran, the lizard ran too!
and it fell off the wall and PHAM! on the floor.
i freaked out!, screamed, switched off the lights and ran for my life!
mummy was like laughing her ass off,
and then she said:"tmr we'll find a dead lizard on the floor."
she then asked me to close the door!
i was like WTF?! NO WAY! IM NOT LEAVING THE BED!
she also scared the lizard come in.
my feet was off the ground 99.9% of th time,
and when i really had no choice and go back to my own room,
i walked really carefully,
and IT'S HARD LOOKING OUT FOR A LIZARD ON PARQUET FLOORING!
but NEXT MORNING THERE WAS NO DEAD LIZARD!
means the lizard is still alive,
LURKING BEHIND SOMETHING!
im so gonna buy the lizard trap later,
stupid big fat lizard, YOU'RE DEAD MEAT! >.<


was surfing the net,
when i was reminded of many many things.
too many things have happened.
it suddenly dawned upon me,
i seemed to have caused you to lose your smile.
because of me, you werent as happy as when i first knew you.
so, it actually is a good thing that now things are like that.
isnt it?
the next time i know you, will i make you lose your smile again?
if i would, i wouldnt wanna know you ever again.
i want you to get your smile back.

#281.



徘了徊了走了错了哭了懂了累了倦了困了
烦的乱的梦的都是真的
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
永远的失去的怎么忘呢
你坐过的沙发 困了你爱的音乐
听了我等着你等成了哀伤
我的你的他的好的坏的难的灰的蓝的黄的
酸的甜的苦的都还记得
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘得
我想要换你了真的不想要了只得放了
环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了
我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择
我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择
我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱的那么深刻
不准问值得不值得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是你给了我的选择
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的浮躁的梦过的
永远的失去的怎么忘呢
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我想要换你了真的不想要了
只得只得疯了疯了
忘了

#280.

daddy&mummy went to vietnam this morning.
why vietnam, i also cant understand.
THERE'S LIKE NOTHING THERE CAN?!


anyway,
stayed up late to watch premonition last night,
and this time i understood the movie!
watched it like 2 or 3 years ago,
and when jun and i walked out of the cinema,
we were like HUH?

and brother is damn lousy la.
he merely watched the introduction,
and then left the room to sleep.

anyway,
the show is still able to shock me.
mummy always say i sleep like a log,
but last night,
a single noise would be able to wake me up,
and for once I HEARD MY HP ALARM.
for a moment, i forgot all about the alarm.
for one month, i didnt hear any alarm.
last night i did.
LOL.


anyway,
i have to get back to my study mode,
and daddy says i'll be late for school for sure,
since i've gotten use to waking up at 12nn.
lol.

OH YAY!
second bro just called and is bringing granny and i for lunch!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Friday, June 20, 2008

#279.

I'M FREAKING ANNOYED!

there's someone in my block,
who's singing angela's songs with the mic
and HER SINGING SUCK BIG TIME.

and then today,
there was someone shouting shut up! and 安静!
EFFING FUNNY.
but apparently she cant hear it.
omfg.
someone shut her up!

if this person ever joins some superstar thing,
that's it man.
the judges are bound to shoot her to the underground.
LOL.

#278.

TRUST. TRUST. TRUST.
rachael must trust.
rachael must learn to trust.
rachael must trust him.

many many lessons,
told me i should trust.
but i still didnt.

im so ashamed of myself.

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went to dte to meet afeeq,
and eugene appeared.
we then studied together,
and then went dessert.
in the end dessert became like dinner.
can you believe it?
a few pieces of dough cost me $5.50.
omfg, i was like grumbling,
and afeeq and eugene kept laughing at me.

and thousands of apologies to wanjing,
for what eugene did with my phone! )):

ricky also called me yesterday.
LOL
and i really cannot find time to meet him!
dammit. HAHA.

"Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along."
-Rumi

Thursday, June 19, 2008

#277.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

anyway,
coach has gone to bangkok again.

Me: unclejack! bon vogage and take care! remember to bring your trunks in case you're late and miss the flight. then can swim there. hahaha.
he replies:i already hand the trunks to my friend. in case i miss the flight, he will wear the trunks and transform to superman and fetch me to bangkok.
Me: hahaha. ya ya. dont care how you go there, but when you're there must buy me things! hahaha.
he then called me,
and said: i'll go there, and buy you a goat.
so if you're lazy to walk to the pool,
the goat will bring you there.
we then argued over how he's gonna get pass the customs,
and the fur and meat and blah blah.
then called me again,
ask me what i wanted.
suddenly forgot all that i regretted not buying.
LOL.

anyway,
im damn pissed off now.
i will go down to meet afeeq.

afeeq just sms-ed me,
"are you from jurong? HAHA."
like ooops, im still on the comp,
unchanged, not ready.
SORRY DUDE!

"Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt."
-Tom Gates

#276.

"We come. We go. And in between we try to understand."
-Rod Steiger

sipping at a cup of warm chamomile tea, i await the hypnotic lull to droopy eyelids and gentle snoring. it doesn't happen. the day started out full of sunny anticipation, but ended in apathetic lethargy. i drop a pill into the cup, listening to the sizzling noise as effervescence takes place.

sometimes it is difficult to understand the how and the why of life, the who brings pain much, and the when ready will ever come. am i losing you? probably. are you perplexed at why my mind unfurls like labyrinthine byways of modern literature?

i watch as the tiny bits of leaves escape the tea bag and settles at the bottom of my glass. i gave it a little stir and the bits start to swirl. something is dying inside and i don't know how to fix it. instead, i turn to indifference. it is one of the most powerful emotion(or the lack of).

"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference."

-Elie Wiesel

contempt and stonewalling is poison. how do we retain that fondness and admiration for love?

#275.

and i'm left with nothing again.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

#274.

RACHAEL IS CONFUSED.

you lead me to the right,
but you look as though you want me to go left.
so IS IT THE RIGHT OR LEFT?


you did all these, and did all that,
for what?
what are you trying to prove?
what are you trying to do?

i feel so tired,
trying to follow you,
trying to know what you want.
but i just keep losing track.

i offer you my arms, my brain and my heart;
the offer is open for a lifetime.
i know i'm not of much help, but i am not silly.
you mean much to me,
so regardless,
i'm gonna stick around in the shadows,
not get in your way, and perhaps,
become growing vines to soften edges of the seemingly sturdy wall.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

#273.

sometimes i really dont understand humans.
must she be that egoistic?

when someone ignores you,
you say i brainwash him.
why dont you reflect on yourself?

in case you're not aware,
HE'S NOT THE ONLY ONE ALRIGHT.

sometimes thinking about what you say really make me pissed.
i really dont understand you.
do you just have to push everything to someone?

and i only found out yesterday,
while weeks ago,
you told me that he was ignoring you.
what're you trying to do?
testing me?
testing to see what was my reaction?
like WTF?

do you think i enjoy talking about you?
I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO okay.
stop irritating me!
i have my own limits alright.

STOP BEING A PEST.

#272.

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE.
1. Name : RACHAEL TEO :D
2. Birth date : 16JUNE1991
3. Current status : Single, but unavailable.
4. Eye colour : very dark brown.
5. Hair colour(s) : black.
6. Righty or Lefty : Righty.

LAYER2 : ON THE INSIDE.
1. My heritage : impatient.
2. Fears : darkness.
3. My weaknesses : easily pissed.
4. My perfect pizza : hawaiian! :)))

LAYER3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
1. My thoughts first waking up : what day is today?
2. My bedtime : 11pm
3. My most missed memory : the beginning of the year.

LAYER4 : MY PICK.
1. Pepsi or Coke : Coke. (thanks to afeeq)
2. McDonald's or Burger King : Mac.
3. Single or Group dates : both.
4. Adidas or Nike : Adidas.
5. Tea or nestea : NEITHER.
6. Chocolate or Vanilla : CHOCO! XD
7. Cappuccino or coffee : neither.

LAYER5 : DO YOU..
1. Smoke : N O NO!
2. Curse : sometimes when im really pissed.
3. Take a shower : wtf man. like DUH.
4. Have a crush : Yes.
5. Think you've been in love : Yeah.
6. Go to school : ah ba den.
7. Want to get married? Yup
.8. Believe in youself : yes, to a certain extent.
9. Think you're a health freak : no.

LAYER6 : IN THE PAST
1. Drank alcohol : ABIT.
2. Gone to the mall : obvious.
3. Been on stage : Yes.
4. Eaten Sushi : only tuna! xP
5. Dyed your hair : Nope.

LAYER7 : HAVE YOU EVER..
1. Played a stripping game : No way!
2. Changed who you were to fit in : tried, but failed.

LAYER8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING..
1. To be married : 24.
2. Get a job : yes.

LAYER9 : IN A GUY
1. Best eye colour : all these dont really matter.
2. Best hair colours : as of above.
3. Short hair or long hair : as of above above. :D

LAYER10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1. A minute ago : this
2. Hour ago : blogging.
3. Hours ago : sleeping.
4. 1 month ago : Schoool.
5. Year ago : Still school.

LAYER11 :
FINISH THE SENTENCE.
1. I love : everyone.
2. I feel : tired.
3. I hate : you, for making me love you.
4. I hide : my mood.
5. I miss : him.
6. I need : his hugs.

LAYER12 : Tag 3people.
wanjng, minhui, eileen.

#271.

and the thank-you list goes on....
thanks to eileen, yuanling, cass, selina, matthew, clarissa, joan, cynthia, &marcus.

anyway,
specially for bev and shan,
and WEIMIN FOR HIS FANTASTIC IDEA,
they both sms-ed me at 11.59pm.
and then they say they're special.
yeah, indeed it's different from the norm,
but anyway,
YOU GUYS ARE PROUD OF IT RIGHT? :DD

ay yes.
AFEEQ TELL ME WHAT YOU WERE UP TO!
what swimming this and that?
lol.

oh. and pictures will be posted up.
I PROMISE.
mummy forgot to send me the pictures! >.<

"Faith is believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe."
-Voltaire

Monday, June 16, 2008

#270.

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
daddy, mummy, granny, godpa, hazel, jun, aunt flo, aunt jo, aunt pangga, jude, mr ng, afeeq, ks, zt, jonathan, minhui, khai, amanda, zhiyuan, ronald, joey, bernard, peijie, jinhwee, wanjing, bev, shan, yensoon, and many more.

today was a tiring day.
dunno why, but like so sian.
didnt go bowling, TOO CROWDED,
ended up with pool,
and jinhwee taught me!
fun, but freaking cold la.

and then lunch,
met up with bev and shan,
play arcade,
WASTED money on the UFO toy catcher.
it's like crap la.

then take photo, eat yoghurt,
and the proudest thing is I BOUGHT YAKULT! :DDDD

anyway,
im freaking tired,
and am going to enjoy granny's dinner.

STUPID KHAI PANGSEH ME AGAIN.
ITS THE FIFTH TIME FOR YOUR INFORMATION!

#269.

it's not a happy birthday,
but it is still a birthday filled with hopeful kisses,
and promising wishes.
it may even be a tad deplorable.
but we know misery loves company,
and i don't want company much these days.
a passing phase of melancholy will heal itself.
some memories are realities,
and are better than anything that can ever happen to one again.

regardless, birthdays are good for us.
statistics show that the people who have the most,
live the longest.
so... happy birthday to me.

"We know we're getting old when the only thing we want for our birthday is not to be reminded of it."
-Anonymous

Sunday, June 15, 2008

#268.

MY DAD'S CRAP.

we went to buy shoes just now,
and there was this handsome guy serving us.
daddy crapped with him,
and he was like so shy!
lol.
at the counter,
my dad said,"you very handsome."
"choose one."
EMBARASS ME.
pftbh.
he reminds me of brandon.
LOL.
oops, no sotong. :DDD

anyway, went to e!hub to watch kungfu panda with ALOT of people,
and i really hate crowds.
got so pissed off by the people there.
and i had this UGLY CHEESE STAIN on my blouse.
pftbh.

took pictures and blahblah,
and the best part is still the movie.
their seats are really cool.
LOL.

the panda's SOOOOO CUTE la!

and SHYT!
i've just used up my printer colour!
dammit.
i've been printing music scores,
and i'm so proud of myself.
LOL.

okay,
rachael's gonna be very disciplined,
and she's gonna try out the songs. :D

#267.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
to all fathers.

esp to my daddy,
as promised for helping me with dnt,
the cake's for you, godpa and uncles.
$1000, have to wait longer. :D

yes,
my dad wants a THOUSAND BUCKS FROM ME!
so he can buy a motorbike.

anyway,
had a hard time doing the stand for the cake.
the paper kept tearing.
everytime tear,
my heart also tear once.
did 3 TIMES just to succeed.
lol.

and my beloved daddy is buying me shoes later!
but he insists that it must not be heels.
he wanna buy sports shoes.
BUT RACHAEL WANTS HEELS!
hahaha.

and hor,
BEV I NOT AUNTIE HOR!
wat AUNTIE RACHAEL KEEP CALLING!
smack you ah!.

"I think that one's art is a growth inside one. I do not think one can explain growth. It is silent and subtle. One does not keep digging up a plant to see how it grows."
-Emily Carr

Saturday, June 14, 2008

#266.

PEOPLE WHO WANTS FREE ENTERTAINMENT
AT ESCAPE THEME PARK,
CALL ME ALONG!
LOL.

bev says it's free entertainment.
we took cadbury,
correction. i was FORCED to take the inverter (cadbury)
and i was sitting between jun and shan,
and bev was beside shan.
the ride started,
for the first 5 seconds,
i SCREAMED.
then they LAUGHED.
and couldnt stop laughing.
until the part that they inverted,
i was like screaming,
"knn! shannon i hate you man!"
and
"wtf man! shannon f*ck you!"
LOL.
tell you,
SHANNON IS SUCH A LIAR.
he went rach you okay?
finsh aldy finish aldy.
then the thing moved,
he continued,
sorry ah. i thought end liao.
but still went TWO ROUNDS.

so they said im FREE ENTERTAINMENT.
i cannot take fast,
twirling and whatsoever,
still can.
so i told bev,
when it stopped for awhile,
i managed to cool down,
opened my eyes,
and i freaked out.
so throughout the ride,
cannot relax.
damn giddy sia!
LOL.

then the HAUNTED,
first time jun and i went in,
i kena scared by the guy working there.
i freaked out,
then when walk out,
i was like WHO SCARED ME?!
that guy pushed it all to his colleague.
of course i didnt believe.
then,
second time went in with bev and shan,
we wanted to scare them.
but we ended up being scared like them.
and the guy working there scared us again.
this time i turned back and HA! I SAW YOU!
lol.

it's really fun.

and shan they all called me discount girl.
any idea why?
you know why,
cuz jun and i ONLY SPENT 30cents today!
excluding bus and all that la.
but anyway,
everything is discounted,
vouchered,
and they couldnt believe it.

and there were ALOT of laughing gases around us.
LOL.

had lots of fun,
and i really enjoy their company.
THANKS JUN BEV AND SHAN!
:DDD

went home with jun,
and then did the baking,
and neighbour kindly gave me something for blueberry cupcakes.
it looks really tempting.
tmr maybe. LOL
and the cake smells great.
IM HUNGRY! HAHA.

and mummy is such a cheat.
made us promise no movies till end of o's,
we really did it,
and today she wants to bring me to watch kungfu panda.
of course i dont mind,
but wth!
LOL.

aiya.
off i go.
KUNGFU PANDA!
:DDD

"Love fails, only when we fail to love."
-J. Franklin

#265.

WAIT WAIT WAIT.

now waiting for jun to come,
then go escape.
SIAN.

that guy is a REAL MOUNTAIN TORTOISE.
im having a hard time directing him.
IS MY HOUSE THAT ISOLATED?!

Friday, June 13, 2008

#264.

learnt focaccia bread and raspberry cheesecake,
and the focaccia bread is REALLY GOOD.
im so gonna bake it.

i predict tmr to be adredaline rush man.
will be meeting jun to escape,
and i'll have to rush back to bake daddy his father's day cake.
and since my daddy loves berries,
i'll be doing some raspberry+chocolate sponge cake.
the cheesecake will have to wait till i have more high tech machines.
LOL.

ah.
just now some teeny weeny thing happened in the train.
effing embarassing.

there was this girl from tpjc,
and a guy with her boarded the train.
at first you'll think they're a couple,
but turn out they're cousins.
the girl was talking to her friend on the phone,
when her cousin said something,
then she told her friend,
"my cousin has no life cuz he dont have a gf.
you wanna know him?
then again,
dont want la, he has a head as big as a mushroom."
then she laughed continuously,
while the guy continued to disturb her,
and I LAUGHED OUT (luckily just am chio).
i really laughed out.
DAMN EMBARASSING.
then after seeing my reaction,
the girl laughed even harder,
the guy was even more embarassed.
but I swear, his head IS BIG.
then to divert my attention,
i called jing and laughed to her.
LOL.
she couldnt stop laughing when she heard about it.
omg.
i should really control.
but if she was there,
i bet she would have laughed out loud.
hahaha.

"This is the true joy of life, the being used up for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clot of ailments and grievances, complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the community, and as long as I live, it is my privilege to do for it what I can."
-George Bernard Shaw

#263.

#262.

SHAGGED.

i so feel like sleping now,
i so dont feel like going later.

thank the HOT weather.
omfg.
i cant stand it man.

lucky jun and i never go today.
we would have turned into roasted pigs.
LOL.

#261.

such an easy way to misunderstand.

things went this way.
mummy sms-ed me ytd to ask me if i could go on monday instead of today,
then she told me to just go today,
but she wont be going.
so after that,
she sent me an sms like this:
"no issue, just tell her to wait for me there. i'll be there around 6.40pm."
something like that.
you would think it's her right?!

last night i found out,
she merely forwarded neighbour's sms.
she was not going to go afterall.
and then we were like arguing why she neednt put FROM NEIGHBOUR.
lolol.

anyway,
i'm so glad that i went to mr siow ytd,
completed relative velocity,
and now i dont have to be there till 12!
LOL.

still feeling sleepy,
and i'll have to go soon.
tata people.
lol.

"You are the music while the music lasts."
-T. S. Eliot

Thursday, June 12, 2008

#260.

HIS COLOGNE IS SO DAMN SWEET!
:DDD

#259.

It's true one should never do something guilty.

went back to school for phy practical,
and on the way to the lab,
we were walking near the dnt room,
when belvin shouted out to dunno who,
i practically jumped.
literally jumped.
physically jumped.
i thought it was chang!
but after that realised it was belvin,
then i told jing,
CANNOT DO THINGS AGAINST YOUR CONSCIENCE!

anyway,
today's practical was kinda fun.
at least i didnt feel very stressed like normal.
LOL.

varian keeps calling me his chicken! ptfbh.
and then want me to plot his graph for him.
and i STUPIDLY did.
lol.

oh yes.
I OFFICIALLY ENDED RELATIVE VELOCITY!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
x)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
rachael! it's only relative velocity!!
ah whatever.

anyway,
yesterday was watching tv with mummy,
and then i saw someone the cameraman caught behind the actors.
and he's LUKE.
the distinctive hair,
surely never see wrongly!
he's also probably the first i never recognise wrongly.
ask wanjing and the rest.
i always mistake another person as someone else.
it's damn bad,
they think im blind.
LOL.

and then i heard from jenna,
derrick's in superband too!
LOLOLOL.

sigh.
tomorrow's gonna accompany mummy and neighbour to the baking workshop,
and jun reminded me not to mess the place up.
like :D i wont. thanks for your concern. xD

"People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges."
-Joseph F. Newton Men

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

#258.

You are affectionate, giving and loving. You are very understanding of others which makes you a person others want to be with.

You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future. You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.

You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.

You are tough, hard-working and responsible. When you are assigned to do something, you will do your best no matter how difficult the job at hand might be.

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish.

my personality through my eating habits.
dunno true or not.
LOL.

media.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/1986/youarewhatyoueat.swf

#257.

happened to chance upon this korean drama,
and it's only 10 episodes long.
hence,
i highly recommend you guys to watch!
it's really really touching.
the story is somewhat similar to stairway to heaven,
and the two main cast are the same
as the young cast in stairway to heaven.
MUST WATCH! :D

#256.



请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择


就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)


再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择



爱情 是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制
爱情 是一种本事
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说
最美的是你的名字

爱情 是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情 是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗

为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说
最美的是你的名字

为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说
最美的是你的名字

我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子



I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
Bit something somewhere's gotta give
As sharing in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not
fair

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you cN see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No more inside for me in your life

Cuz I want it all
Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No more inside for me in your life

#255.

RONALD'S ANGRY.

sometimes i wonder what will happen
if all the good staff leaves yamaha.

i still cant get over the issue about liza.
working at yamaha really dont seem as good.

to brother,
dont be angry anymore.
later grow wrinkles not handsome le.
lol.
we all know how it feels to be working at yamaha.
people all expect us to be ... ,
just because yamaha's a big company.
so we always get shit breaks when we make a teeny weeny mistake.
i understand.
dont forget,
everytime something happened,
you would be the one covering up for me,
helping me,
teaching me.
so dont feel so pissed over this,
you'll lose it okay.

your brother here loves you,
so dont angry le!
lol.

"Anybody can become angry, that is easy; but to be angry with the right person, and to the right degree, and at the right time, and for the right purpose, and in the right way, that is not within everybody's power, that is not easy."
-Aristotle

#254.

RACHAEL SKIPPED DNT.
again.

well,
i woke up at 7,
giddy,
went back to sleep.
woke up at 9,
very giddy,
went back to sleep.
woke up at 11,
still very giddy,
so stayed in bed until 12.

i even skipped lunch with daddy!
mr chang is so gonna kill me.

and tmr i have to go back to school for phy!
im dead meat. >.<

ah yes.
it's high time i pack my stuff.
my books and papers are all piling up,
and daddy is nagging aldy.

damn. i hate packing.
LOL.

just went to sherm's blog,
and i realised his reply to me,
months ago.
LOL.
he replied me on 25th march,
and it's like 11 june aldy!
but better late than never.
HAHAHA.

i miss grandfather.
i miss him so.

"They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel."
-Carl W. Buechner

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

#253.

只要笑一笑,没什么事情过不了.

skipped d&t today,
cuz woke up late,
but late wasnt an excuse,
i woke up early enough to get to school in the afternoon.
mr chang and mr ismail is so gonna kill me.

originally intended to go down to godpa's house tmr,
but THEY LAST MINUTE FLEW OFF TODAY!
pftbh.
they should have informed me earlier,
so i would rush to the airport.
!!

and then slacked at home,
re-watched shows,
lunched with daddy,
and then back to comp again.

and then watched old shows,
and part of new shows,
then eugene talked to me.
this is the convo:
EugEnE: eh
RACHAEL T. (: : ?
EugEnE: u emo izzit....nvr come for dnt ytd and today
RACHAEL T. (: : huh?
RACHAEL T. (: : i forgot must go
RACHAEL T. (: : why?
RACHAEL T. (: : chang got say anything?
EugEnE: got...
RACHAEL T. (: : what he say?
EugEnE: he say tmr alst day..if nvr finish then he wont be helping much alrdy..
EugEnE: haha
RACHAEL T. (: : nothing else?
EugEnE: what u want him to say??
RACHAEL T. (: : hahaha
RACHAEL T. (: : then ismail?
EugEnE: he cant be bothered with u cann
RACHAEL T. (: : ya ya
EugEnE: so tmr u coming?
RACHAEL T. (: : what time?
RACHAEL T. (: : if i can wake up
EugEnE: if u coming can bring hte cup? we wanna see it
RACHAEL T. (: : aiya
EugEnE: tmr 7.45
RACHAEL T. (: : i still thought why
RACHAEL T. (: : but i wrap aldy
RACHAEL T. (: : how to see?
EugEnE: oh ya!!!
EugEnE: nvm then
RACHAEL T. (: : hhaha
RACHAEL T. (: : u not want me do dnt
RACHAEL T. (: : just want me show th cup
EugEnE: wadever lah..
RACHAEL T. (: : haha
RACHAEL T. (: : hol hw do until where?
EugEnE: very funny meh?? =.=!!
RACHAEL T. (: : ?
EugEnE: finish alrdy.
RACHAEL T. (: : !
RACHAEL T. (: : really!

and then afeeq asked,
"are you trying very hard to drop dnt?"
and added that mr chang say i die.
ROFL.

but 7.45!
mai siao siao.
so damn early la!
im like still considering la.

damn.
im feeling tired at the thought of dnt!
dammit dammit dammit!

"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope."
-Martin Luther King

#252.




沉默地概叹 相爱为何相争
各自各筑起了自己世界
无谓的争拗 却令意志消沉
每次面对突然无声
为何是爱侣 偏却是无法配对
快乐告终了 注定要分开
无奈这一切决定似是玩笑
难明是每每死心但变成更伤心
和你的每一天 没法跨障碍
似是跌落 彼此隔膜里
再会时候未挽留 在无言中聚散
失望过仍怀念共你的 往日欢笑

为何是爱侣 偏却是无法配对
快乐告终了 注定无法改变
无奈这一切决定似是天意
难明是每每死心但变成更伤心
和你的每一天 面对的障碍
我注定接受 分手已默允
再度重遇是领会 在平和中渡过
今日我仍然留住记忆
和你的每一天

无法与你一起 面对的障碍
注定接受 分手已默允
再度重遇是领会 在平和中渡过
今日我仍然留住记忆
和你的每一天
只盼共你 重聚时候再意会一笑

Monday, June 09, 2008

#251.

OMFG.
I HATE YAMAHA!

why chase liza out!
without her, the ballet department would not be like now.
WTF man.

pissed pissed pissed!
i'm glad i made the right choice of not going back,
and THAT NEW STAFF IS SO GONNA REGRET JOINING THE COMPANY.
serious.

WTF WTF WTF.

#250.



Giving up, why should I

I've come too far to forget
We're beautiful, we just got lost

Somewhere along the way
So much was missing when you went away
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don′t need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn′t seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here

Standing here face to face
A finger on your lips
Don't say a word don't make a sound
Silence surrounds us now
Even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
Let' start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don′t need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn′t seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

I've never been the one to open up
But you've always been the voive within
The only warmth from my cold heart
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises
Let's start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don't need a finish line
Let's take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don't care where we go
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here
Let's start from here

#249.

QUIZ
01. What have you been doing recently?
Procrasinating. LOL.
02. Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
i dont turn them off, they turn off on their own.
03. What happened at 10.00am today?
i nearly died bcuz of relative velocity.
04. When did you last cry?
last night.
05. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
i DONT like peanut butter. tuna's better! x)
06. What do you want in your life right now?
inspiration!
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
neither. i walk in the rain. :D
08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my darling bolster!
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
shorts la.
10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
It takes moments to have a crush, minutes to like, days to love, but a lifetime to forget someone.
I'm beginning to love you more. :)
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
i'm not sure. maybe.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
NOPE.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
sky of love.
14. What are you proud of?
nothing. im a failure.
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Just reached moe. Know that you have alot of commitments. Study hard and u will still get dist. (ya. mr chang lied to me!)
What was the last song you sang out loud?
could it be you?
17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
apple, PIG. pftbh!
18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
dont be an ass! FROM ALVIN GOH MING MEI.
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
11 plus i think.
20.Are you currently happy?
no, to a certain extent.
21. Who gives you best advice?
mummy!
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
whipped cream is FATTENING!
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
no one. sleeping's more important.
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
YES.
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
GIRLY!
26. Do you wear toe socks?
nah, so ugly.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Brandon.
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
you can say so.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
BIG EGO.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
if he counts it.
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
nah.
32. What is the colour of your room?
apple white.
33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
maybe, depending on who the someone is. LOL.
34. Do you believe in the saying ‘talk is cheap’?
no.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
my brother?
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
HIM.
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
i think so.
38. Do you have a life?
i dont think so.
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt?
huh?
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
it represents my mood.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
i dont remember.
42. Last time you smiled?
just now.
43. Have you changed this year?
yes, i would say.
44. What are you listening right now?
excuse my french by 2be3.
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
yes. brother is pressing me to go swimming.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
half-open. LOL.
47. Is there a quote you live by?
Faith is to believe what you do not yet see; the reward for this faith is to see what you believe. by Saint Augustine.
48. Do you want someone you can’t have?
if i cant have him, yes.
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
DUH.
50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in weeks?
making myself die of stroke. LOLOL.
51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm??
lying in bed, fretting.
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
i have no love life now.
53. What song best describe your love life?
one last cry.
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
i dont know.
55. Who always make you laugh?
girly, wanjing and him.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
DUH.
57. Favourite website?
my blog lo.
58. What your middle name?
im not angmoh!
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
d&t. )))):
60. What do you think you are like?
gemini are said to have split personality.
61. Who will you choose to die with?
the person i hate most. xD
62. Where have you been today?
the siows'.
63. What game do you play often?
i have no time!
64. Who are you missing right now?
girly! and him.
65. If you’ve to choose between friend & loves, who will you choose?
both! xP
66. What are you doing right now?
doing this damn survey. xD
67. Which primary school are you from?
st. hilda's primary.
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
pink, green, orange.
69. What emotion you like to show?
:D:D:D:D:D
70. What is your life to you?
a joy to others.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
scream into my pillow!
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
cass.
73. Who do you admire most?
Igor Stravinsky
74. Which month are you born in?
june.
75. How are you feeling right now?
irritated.
76. What is the time now?
17.05pm
77. Where are you now?
home la.
78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
i dont dye.
79. Why are you doing this test?
ask beverley!
80. What do you do when you’re moody?
fa lao sao.
81. At which age you wish to get married?
24.
82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
both.
83. Do you think you have enough confidence?
yes.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
no one.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
yeap.
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
that's if only. but anyway it would be the nov thing.
87. What is your goal for this year?
o's and that.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
yes.
89. What feeling do you love most?
the sweet sweet one lor.
90. Do you really think its Gobal Warming now?
prolly yes!
91. What feeling you hate the most?
helplessness.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes. DUH.
93. Do you believe in god?
no. i believe more in myself.
94. if you had one minute to call someone before you died, who would it be?
HIM.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my bolster.
96. What will you bring when you fight?
my kaki la.
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
being so childish that time.
98. What would you feel that on one no longer cares for you?
like that lo.
99. What if your stead two-timed you?
break up.
100.What do you want now?
sleep!

Instructions:Remove 1 question from the above add in your own personal question, and bold it.

Next list 10 people whom you would want them to do this, at the end of the post.Notify them I their tag box that he/she has been tagged.

1. wanjing
2. jenna
3. xueyi
4. minhui
5. seekhei
6. elsen
7. amandapoh
8. eileen
9. isk
10. others! xD

#248.

XUEYI'S BLOG SONG IS FREAKING NICE!

omfg, blogger really sucks.
i typed one whole lot of stuff,
but blogger died on me.
WTF!

anyway,
i was saying that im freaking tired,
and that i promised brother to go swimming.
so i should stop procrastinating.
so off i go,
but before that,
i have to complete the SUPER LONG SURVEY thanks TO BEV!
thanks alot ah bev.
LOL.

"If we are incapable of finding peace in ourselves, it is pointless to search elsewhere."
-Francois de la Rochefoucauld

Sunday, June 08, 2008

#247.

Please watch your steps.
Do you think I will not know what to do with you?
Do you think we will not know what to do?
You're not making me look very smart, are you?

BUT it's okay.
I will know what to do.
I will see that you get sued.
Of course, I will NOT dirty my own hands.
Watch and see.

#246.

"Rachael is a person who can be...

(R) ==> Really friendly
(A) ==> Always there when you need help
(C) ==> Cheerful at all times
(H) ==> Helpful towards friends
(A) ==> Active in sports
(E) ==> Efficeint at doing things
(L) ==> Loves to help people"


i bet you have forgotten about this.
well, i haven't.


Under the cloak of night i write, a poem sown with thought of thee.

I never was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and yet subtle
Her face it bloomed like a sweet pink flower
Upon blurting the words "i'm looking at her"

A journey embarked the end unknown
a winding path of smooths and bumps
we stand uprooted hand in hand
embracing life's challenges with our crap

What lies ahead remains untold
For wad matters most is the now
Where i live and breathe each day
hoping its one more day with her

I never saw so sweet a face
As that i stood before
My heart left its dwelling place
And can return no more.

#245.

photos of dad's bday as promised.
huixiu jie&i.
mummy says my thighs are large.
pftbh.

my beloved granny and us.

aunt flo, xiong ge and porky. xD

PORKY PIG. xD

we had a hard time finishing 3 cakes!
and eric looks blur.

#244.

FRIDAY,
MY GOOD FRIEND told me to watch this very nice midnight movie.
no doubt about it,
it was really great.
touching, and new storyline,
unlike those normal and boring ones.
BUT.
it caused me to wake up late the following morning.

SATURDAY,
was supposed to report at 8.30am,
i received a phone call at 8.25,
jing: "rach, where are you?"
Me: "huh? sleeping lah."
jing: "WHAT? sleeping? today got cip leh!"
Me: "i know. 8.30 wad. now what time?"
jing: "8.30am."
Me: "WTF? okay. i'll come now."

and then rushed down,
leonard saw me, and said "just wake up ah?"
LOL.
syed also laughed at me.
pftbh.

so it's sucky to do cip when it's raining like duno what,
and then get chased out by security guard.
like wtf la.
the security guard: " sorry, you cannot enter tm."
Me: " yeah we know. we never intend to enter wad."
the security guard: " but you're in tm. this is considered tm."
Me: " fine lor." and stepped out of THEIR floor.

so we went to the market,
and indeed there's alot more business,
and best of all,
FREE BREAKFAST.
LOL.
well, it's a saturday,
and my meals are supposed to be paid by my family. xD

then went over to godpa's house,
but the kids were still sleeping. )):
jing and i then went to tamp mart to look for business,
but dunno why,
people there love to sleep,
nobody goes to the market there,
and the people there who are awake are exceptionally NGIOW.

we then gave up,
went to the take bus,
and then jing told me about her bro's swimming coach and what.
so i recommended uncle jack to her,
and then called him to ask him about the fees and all.
after that,
Me: today raining! dun need go swimming!
him: you made of paper ah?
Me: but there's thunder. cannot swim.
him: you never listen in science class ah? lightning kills, thunder dont.
Me: but if there's thunder, there's lightning.
and then we continue arguing.
LOL.
this reminds me about tues.
Me: uncle jack! sorry eh. today not going swimming. too busy, have to teach piano.
him: you dun bluff bluff la.
Me: really! if i have the time i will come okay.
him: when you're really free, the pool water dry up aldy.
Me: haha! wont la. so much. ireally have to teach, no time la. if i have time i will come de okay.
him: ok lah, music teacher.
Me: haha. when i really really free i'll teach you music okay!
andthen i did rush down just for him,
BUT i forgot my swimming stuff.
so ultimately,
never swim.
he say i bo xim.
LOL.

anyway, back to the cip,
went back to tm area and met up with simon.
he donated,
and then he called me pig too.
like wth.

met up with eugene,
and we fought over the space to stand.
we kept comparing,
and IT'S TOTALLY NOT FAIR,
when he stand there and got a $5 donation,
when i was supposed to get it!

after that went to collect miss lim's mug,
and the shop uncle praised my drawing skills.
drawing alphabets to be exact. xD

so fretted over what kind of wrapping paper to buy,
but decided to buy the nice but difficult to wrap one,
since mummy woulud be doing the wrapping. x)
and i think she really did a great job.
and then we hung around popular,
and then jing and i saw this very very very cute soft toy.
we were playing with it,
then guoxin came and asked,
NI JI SUI LIAO?
pftbh. IM STILL ANGRY AT HIM! >.<

AHH WTF!
blogger sucks!
i posted one whole lot of yesterday's dinner here,
but it disappeared!
WTH WTH WTH!

anyway,
in a nutshell,
JUN WANTS TO LAUGH AT ME FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO PEEL CRAB,
but HE HIMSELF NEEDS HIS DAD'S HELP TOO.
AND THEY BOTH ARE DAMN VIOLENT.
and FOUR LEAVES ROCK.

"A good composer does not imitate; he steals."
-Igor Stravinsky