#547.

MY BOYFRIEND NEEDS A HAIRCUT.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA




i am a happy girl :)

i love my boyfriend :)

i am the happiest person on earth :)

i have the wonderfullest boyfriend in the world :)








sickening,
my ears are giving me some strange problems
and after 3 days it's still not solved.

as im typing,
they're giving me problems.
WHAT THE HELL MANNNZXXZXZ.





loads of stuff to do,
i gotta go alr BYE.
i'll upload pictures over the weekend maybe :D

#546.

When your boyfriend asks you to skip CCA to go home with him,
to study for an important math test the next day,
but because of responsibility,
you reject your boyfriend and goes for your CCA,

only to realise only 2/3 of the choir turned up,
due to many reasons and some even choose not to come.

How will you feel?



now i fully understand how the seniors felt when they couldnt get the choir together quickly,
how they felt when so many people do not turn up.



IF YOU EVER SEE THIS:
I DO NOT FEEL APOLOGETIC ABOUT MAKING YOU COME BACK FOR PRACTICE EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE ALREADY IN THE TRAIN.
YES, IT WAS MEAN OF ME TO MAKE YOU DO THAT, AND WE WERE FRIENDS.
BUT THIS WAS NOT MY CHOICE, IT WAS NOT OUR CHOICE.
SO BY KICKING THE DOORS, BANGING THE DOORS, SHOWING US ATTITUDE, GIVING US FACE,
IT DOESNT MAKE ME/US FEEL GUILTY.
IN FACT IT ONLY TELLS ME THAT YOU ARE NOT UNDERSTANDING AT ALL.
WE WERE FRIENDS, YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND WHAT WE DID.
BUT YOU DIDNT, SO IM NOT SORRY AT ALL.



and my day got worse with my foul mood and all.
totally sucky,
but he promised that today would be a better day.
and today really is a better day.
thank you boyfriend :)



econs lecture and tutorials are really funny.
LZB cried (again),
and while we were trying to be quiet and not laugh,
she shouted: NOBODY WANT TO GIVE ME TISSUE AH?!?!?!

omfg,
i laughed out loud.

and yesterday's lecture was recorded by yingling,
she totally crapped on my phone and said all the funny things.
i laughed to myself on the bus,
and i felt really stupid. HAAHAHA



okay, im going to try to get some work done now.
tata! :D

#545.

feeling totally lousy today.

i hope all these feelings gooo awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
FAR FAR AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY












rachael is a happy girl because she passed VC test, 47/70!
that's a B grade, though it's only E because it's a retest.
but most importantly,
i've improved.
boyfriend got 47 too :D:D:D



i hope tomorrow will be a better day.
i hope tomorrow will be a better day.
i hope tomorrow will be a better day.



i look forward to a better tomorrow.
kampatei rachael! :D



integration time :D

#544.

RACHAEL HAVENT DONE ANY WORK!

i'm so not proud of myself.







okay im going to bathe,
put on a face mask,
and START ON INTEGRATION!





i love this picture :D my boyfriend's a good photographer :)



this is how happy i can be when im with my lovely boyfriend LOL




this is how happy WE can be when we're together. HAHAHHAHA



BYEBYEBYEBYE!

#543.

I MUST BE REALLY BORED TO DO THIS.
anyways i was tagged by shimin. HAHHAA


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
• as long as i think he is, can alr. :)

2. Smart?
• as long as he has a certain level of intelligence can alr. HAHAHA

3. Preferred age?
• not too much younger and not too much older.

4. Preferred height?
• TALLER THAN ME! HAHAHA

5. How about sense of humor?
• i love it. HAAHHA

6. How about piercings?
• NOOOOOOOOO! HAHAHAHA. i dont allow you to pierce okay. hahaha

7. Accepts you for who you are?
• yeah of course. then when he can do that, i'll be more willing to change for him. right? HAHAHA

8. Pink hair?
• LBU if he really has pink hair. HAHAHHA

9. Mushy or no?
• mushy to a certain extent will do. HAHAHA

10. Thin or fat?
• not too fat and not too thin. just like zy will do. :D

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
• yellow? HAHAHA

12. Long hair or short hair?
• as long as it suits him, it's okay.

13. Plastic or metal?
• ???

14. Smells good?
• duh. his hair smells fabulous. :D:D:D

15. Smoker?
• of course not.

16. Drinker?
• not excessively, it's okay.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
• dont really matter (:

18. Muscular?
• just nice will do.

19. Plays piano?
• so he can play duet with me! but it's okay if he doesnt. HAHAHA

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
• dont really matter.

21. Plays violin?
• must be soo cool (like daishin kashimoto), but it's okay if he dont. :D

22. Sings very good?
• doesnt matter. for instance, my boyfriend sings totally off tune. HAAHAHAHA

23. Vain?
• he IS vain. hahaha, at least it shows that he bothers about the way he looks.

24. With glasses?
• doesnt matter.

25. With braces?
• YOU BETTER PUT IT ON! HAHAHHAHA

26. Shy type?
• it's okay. but it'd be best if he's not too shy.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
• good boy. :D

28. Active or passive?
• active.

29. Tight or bomb?
• HUH?

30. Singer or dancer?
• he's neither. so i think it doesnt matter.

31. stunner?
• doesnt mattter.

32. Hiphop?
• dont really like it. HAHAHHA

33. Earrings?
• NO! HAHHHA

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
• depends. but most importantly, he loves me most. LOL

35. Dimples?
• not necessary.

36. Bookworm?
• doesnt matter.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
• it'd be nice, but not too much.

38. Playful?
• HAHAHAHAHHAHA. zy is really playful. :D

39. Flirt?
• NO THANKS.

40. Poem writer?
• it's okay. HAHHAHA

41. Serious?
• serious at the right time. :)

42. Campus crush?
• huh?

43. Painter?
• dont matter.

44. Religious?
• doesnt matter, as long as it doesnt affect us.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
• HAHAHHA it's really funny when he does that.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
• my boyfriend's a computer idiot.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
• dont matter since i only understand probably 2 or 3 of the languages only. HAHAHA

48. Loyal or faithful?
• Faithful.

49. good kisser
• doesnt matter. :D

50. loves children??
• of course! it's always good if you share the same love.
anyways he loves children HAHAHAHA



alright,
i wont be so mean like shimin to tag 20 people. HAHAHAHAHHA


damn,
now zy knows all my secrets. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH

#542.

HAPPY THIRD MONTH ANNIVERSARY :):):)

time flies, and we're at our third alr.

HAAHHAHAHA first time i dunno what to say la.
im like tired out alr.


went east coast park with boyfriend today,
wanted to rent bike but because there wasnt enough time,
so we decided to walk!



walk stop walk stop walk,
there was this point when a guy stopped him/us,
and said that he was some volunteer and they were playing some silly games,
and he gave zy a flower and asked him to propose to me!
OMFG IT WAS SUPER FUNNY.
but he didnt do it la,
otherwise i would have been soooooooooo embarrassed.



time spent together today was rather short
because had to send mom to the airport,
though he went too,
but things are always different when we're not alone.
LOL



and the mood is always dampened because of many school activities and homework and so on.
maybe because i still couldnt let myself be less affected by it.




i will try to be happier.
i will become happier.
we'll enjoy our 4th month im sure (:






I LOVE YOU! :D

#541.

Dinner at Junction8 with boyfriend :)
we're saving $$ for saturday,
so we didnt eat with sg06 girls at din tai fung.

the sg06 people are really funny.


i dun understand what's so nice about my chinese name,
everyone's calling me that now.

moron phua says my name is cool. -.-
even my number in his phone is saved under 'YIHE'. LOL



shall wait for yvonne to post the crazy things we did in class today.
HAHAHAHHAH,
thinking of it really makes me laugh.
she's like mad and 'high',
i suspect LC acted as a kind of drug.
or maybe it's the classical music. HAHAHAHA




before blogging what im typing now,
i nearly posted the ugly words and all.

im super pissed off la,
you better watch out man.




went for the 'meet the people' session.
i thought it was boring at first,
but it seems quite fun.
got to know some of the yj seniors,
it's funny when we go 'yah yah yah'! aminah always does this,
jimmy goh always blah blah blah.

if i was living in yishun,
i wouldnt mind going another time (:


OFF TO BED! :D

#540.

When studying makes a person stressed and tired,
and makes the person hard to talk to,

should we blame the books for changing the person,

or

should we blame the person for letting the stress get to him?









i feel great nearing to the night today.

have been slacking through the weekend as usual,
i really hope i can study during the weekends man.


im looking forward to the end of the week alr,
when the week hasnt even started.


this week,
i'll try to control myself and dont let the stress get to me
and affect the people around me.


add oil, rachael.
i can do it :D
im looking at the week with a happy thought.
WHAT COULD POSSIBLY HAPPEN??
:D:D:D:D:D:D



now i really have to do my music essay alr.
SHYTTTT

#539.

Love is about caring for and supporting each other.





The followings are indicators of a healthy relationship:

Able to find healthy ways to work through differences and disagreements
Able to make decisions together
Able to share honest feelings freely
Able to trust each other
Able to understand yourself more, besides getting to know your date
Able to respect each other's feelings and opinions, even if one may disagree.
Feel comfortable, respected and at ease
Feel loved by being listened to and supported
Feel safe and secure


Invariably, all couples have disagreements at some point. However, couples in a healthy relationship will attempt to work through their disagreements constructively and solve them. Here are some helpful tips for positive conflict resolution:

Take one problem at a time and talk about it before it gets out of control.
Actively listen to what each other has to say. Don't sit there thinking of what you want to say next.
Take a problem-solving approach. Stop blaming each other and see what can be done so that both of you can compromise and agree on what to do.
Ask questions to find out more about each other's point of view or opinion, clarify issues and test your understanding.
Keep an open mind. Ask yourself and your date "what if" questions to help both you see other options.





found this in the midst of researching on my PW.

i havent done much work today,
im ashamed of myself.
HAHAHA

#538.

START WORKING
START WORKING
START WORKING
START WORKING
START WORKING

THINGS TO DO TODAY:
RESEARCH FOR PW
RESEARCH ON DR MALIKI
MATH INTEGRATION
PIANO PRACTICE

ENOUGH TO KILL.


TIME TO START.
ADD OIL RACHAEL! :D

#537.

Feeling better after logging on to facebook.
after going to mr siow's profile.
it's f*cking hilarious.
i couldnt stop laughing and im expecting a sarcastic reply from him.
cant help it, i miss his sarcasm.
HAHAHA.

PIGS ARE FLYING. jude frigging has a facebook profile.
i couldnt believe my eyes.
i thought mr siow had another jude in his tuition.
HAHAHAHA


shyt i really miss mr siow alot.
im so gonna visit him soon.
i hope i dont let him down with my VC test results.

when it's confirmed that i passed,
im so going to tell him:
mr siow, i've passed the first math test since february. HAHAHAHAHA

he's so gonna slaughter me.






HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

#536.

crushed.


maybe it's the stress + studies + school + tiredness.
everytime when the week is ending,
such things will be more prone to happening.

all it takes is an incident to kill my mood on monday,
it'll affect me till friday,
and then it'll affect him.

this is the case this week.
i cant even remember what happened on monday,
but i remember feeling fucked up on monday.
and then tuesday's problems added on before i could get over monday's.
hence it adds on until friday,
when my mood is totally sucky.
normally it'd end up okay,
because my boyfriend is understanding and always give in to me.
thus we always end up fine.



but this week,
he had to deal with the same thing as me.
hence things got bad.

it was just trival matters,
but i had to blow it up.
i hate myself.

i wish i could be more understanding.
i think i have been more understanding than in the past.
but i need to be even more understanding,
so when i get such fucked up moods,
i still can handle my emotions more objectively.



this is only the start.
im afraid about the WR days.
i dun know how we're going to survive then.

maybe it's planned,
so we learn from our mistakes today,
and thus we can better handle the future,
where situations would be like this,
maybe even worse.



okay,
i'll need the weekend to heal,
and i'll try to deal with next week better,
so i wont screw my life up.


ADD OIL RACHAEL!
YOU CAN DO IT!

off to the showers and maybe do my homework.

#535.

As i talked to my good friend PRISCILLA (hahaha),
i realised there were many things running in me.


sometimes i feel like a burden to him
like things would be so much better if i wasnt there
sometimes i get the kind of feeling that he's irritated or annoyed with me
i really dont want him to retain
and worse more if because of me
i dun want people to say,"maybe zy wont do so badly if he wasnt with rachael. she's causing him to do worser"



this is what i truly think.





i need a chill pill too.
i feel like breaking down alr.
my essay is due at 9am tomorrow but i havent even started.
50% of my class has alr handed it in,
meaning shiying alone,
since music class only has 2 students LOL

#534.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.











COOL :D

#533.

Had a short quiz on differentiation today,
as usual i had this uncertain feeling,
not knowing if i've done it correctly or wrongly,
and as usual, it would turn out right.

this feeling has always been there,
from the day i learnt how to differentiate and integrate.

sucky feeling,
where's all the confidence mr siow let me have in the past?!?!


I NEED THE CONFIDENCE AND DRIVE FROM MR SIOW.
I MISS MR SIOW.
i miss his 'reverse psychology' way to make me work,
i miss the times when he keeps telling me i'll fail,
when i do well, it's because the paper was easy.
i miss every time spent there man.

i remember calling him about a month ago,
telling him i have to pass the vectors and complex numbers test,
or i might just freaking retain.
he made me feel so helpless man,
i broke down.

today's vectors and complex numbers test was the BEST i've ever had in this year.
the kind of feeling i get when i leave the examination venue,
the kind of energy and attention i have and give to my paper,
where i dont feel sleepy at all,
finish the paper in 1 hour and have another hour to redo the paper,
i hope it'll all come back.
i hope to feel this way every math test,
like the way i felt confident for the past 4 years.

im feeling the motivation to do well for math again!

COME ON RACHAEL,
your dream is to be like mr siow right?
YOU FREAKING HAVE TO ACE MATH LIKE THE WAY YOU USED TO DO!
DIFFERENTIATION IS NOT TOUGH.
INTEGRATION IS EASY!
ALL THE WAY!

okay the part on integration is totally not true.
i have to start on the tutorials or i'll really lose my dream again.
for once, it finally seem to be coming back.
it better come back for good.





enough about math,
I NEED TO BUCK UP FOR ECONS.
failing econs all the way,
the only thing to cheer me up is my class didnt do that well either.

music essay due!
but im still blogging.
time to work, rachael.


i'm tired.
school lofficially starts at 8.40am on fridays,
but for so many fridays i have to report at 7.30am.
it's been a long long time,
since i've had breakfast with my ppg and moron.
i miss the days.

sacrifice, i guess.

in life, we always have to make sacrifices, right?
i hate to admit it,
but if you have to sacrifice something,
it has to be me first.
i hope that day wont come,
but it hurts to see you this way,
feeling stressed up and all, etc.


we really have to start making sacrifices.

Things to do over this weekend:
1) Chem Equilibrim tutorial
2) Chem revision
3) Integration tutorial
4) Econs revision and catching up
5) Music revision and memorizing
6) Music practice

i love you, my dear.
press on, i know you can do it (:

work hard boyfriend, we're going to pass the promos together :D

#532.

RACHAEL FEELS GREAT! :D
NOT.


tomorrow is VC test 3.
moron is so confident he's going to crash the paper tomorrow.
me?
i just think i might pass.


and here i am,
blogging.
i need to shower, and start on my VC.
and if i have time, i need to differentiate and integrate.


today's econs lecture was hilarious.
she freaking couldnt pronounce SOCIETIES la.
omg.

i think i'll be getting my econs paper back tomorrow.
im gonna see how badly i failed.
HAHAHA.


today it was raining heavily.
totally crappy,
i got wet.
but there was this kind soul who seltered me over from a void deck to across the car park.
but my saviour disappeared!
i bet she found me fat that she got wet too, so she didnt shelter me the second time.
junping sheltered me over,
and i was walking at 5 times speed to look for umbrellas and borrow them,
so that i could bring it out of school,
to those stranded students who couldnt cross through because of the rain.
boyfriend didnt shelter me back to school after he sheltered a guy there ):


and piano prac today was kind of crappy.
i've started learning pathetique sonata mvt 3 :)





okok,
im going to shower, practise a little of piano,
and start on math!
CANNOT LOSE TO A MORON :D




TATA!

#531.

MY MORON TRIED TO DO A BUNNY HOP ON THE CHAIR AND LANDED ON HIS KNEES.


SUPER DUPER UBER FUNNY I TELL YOU.
ONLY YVONNE AND I WERE LAUGHING LIKE CRAZY BECAUSE WE KNEW HOW RETARDED THAT WAS.

I SWEAR THERE'S NO ONE AS RETARDED AS HIM.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA



ANYWAYS,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I HOPE YOU LIKE THE PRESENT AND CARD,
PLUS THE SUPER SPECIAL PLASTIC BAGS THE MORON AND IDIOT GOT YOU :D:D:D

MOJO JOJO STILL CANNOT WRITE ON YOUR SPECIAL POWERPUFF GIRLS BIRTHDAY CARD!
HAHAHAHAHA

LASTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
I REMEMBERED THE 'TO' HAHAHAHAAHAHHHAHAAHAHAHAHA!

okay im crazy,
typing in caps all the way.
studying stress kills.

off to do my PW, chinese essay, math, music.
dammit.

#530.

PW DONE,

ONE MORE HOUR BEFORE I GO OUT FOR DINNER WITH MY FAMILY,
and that equates to ONE MORE HOUR FOR ME TO COMPLETE 22 QUESTIONS ON DIFFERENTIATION!
and 22 QUESTIONS MEAN THOSE WITH PART i, PART ii, PART iii, PART iv, BLAH BLAH.


DAMN,
i better start now.
HAHAHAHAHA.



i hope moron will finish his PW by 7pm.



ADD OIL! WE MUST PROMOTE TOGETHER! :D
ILY! :D

#529.

I NEED HELP!!

should i select ONE or TWO as my photo to be on council notice board?!

people tag me and tell me which i should choose okay! :D
THANK YOU! :D:D

ONE:


TWO:

#528.

it's the end of the week.


i've done some work over the week,
relatively compared to the rest of the sem,
i've done quite alot. hahaha


i gotta study for the weekend,
i must pass the math retest.

i must promote! HAHAHA.


have been in low spirits these two days,
feeling totally like crap,
i hope to snap out of it like NOW IMMEDIATELY!.



alright,
i dun think i'll be studying today,
im watching click! :D




im gonna be fine tomorrow.
i better be. :)

#527.

SCREWED UP MT ORAL.
dont wanna talk about it anymore. ANYMORE!

LOL


i regret not going for PRCS' 10th Anniversary dinner.

dammit la,
the freaking jogathon was cancelled.
i wish i decided to skip jogathon and attend man.

now i feel lousy. hahaha


have been studying.
at least i started,
though i admit im not studying hard enough yet.


i dont know why
i always feel so tired and sleepy.

i slept on moron's lap throughout the bus trip.
woke up with backache. HAHAHAHA





okay,
enough of facebooking and blogging.
I GOTTA DO MY MATH TUTORIAL!



GET WELL SOON MR SIM :)

#526.

Enough of playing today,
time to study!

Add oil rachael,
you can do it! :)


Add oil zy,
you can do it too!


remember, we're going to promote together! :D

#525.

we must work hard together.
we must pass promos together.
we must graduate together.

remember you said,
"work hard girlfriend, we are going to pass the promos together."



keep your promise! :)



i know we will work hard together,
i know we will pass promos together,
i know we will graduate together.



i'm sure we'll get through this together,
and it's together.
we wont have to give up on each other to do so.
i know we can do it :D