Today i look at my boyfriend with a different perspective.
A truly handsome man whose beauty comes from within.
You never fail to amaze me, yuan
<3
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
#879.
Yesterday was an awesome 21st monthsary spent with him!
Yuan came to pick me up from school and we went to have froyo at swirl art and after that we went to change his shirt, and we didn't know where to go :( so we decided to go to suntec to walk around and he bought another two shirts and we had dinner at Aston's. Really awesome dinner! Hardly hear him with lots of praises even while eating! Soooo gonna go back there again!
Before that yuan made me close my eyes on the escalator and when I opened my eyes it was all rabbits!!! Damn cute and some of the lop eared ones were so huge they looked like dogs. Hahahaah!
And anyway the card he gave me was really really nice I was so touched! Was alr close to tears when I finished reading it.
And reading it for the fifth time gives me the same feeling. I will miss him so much when he enlists :(
But that aside I really will find a hobby to take up! Hopefully I have time and I can surprise him hehe!
When he enlists, the happiest people are probably my friends. Hahah xinwei alr asked me out on the 12th since he enlists on the 8th! Valentines day will not be spent with him (again) but I'm quite sure it would be a fun-filled one because of my girlfriends in school!
Okay now I'm in school waiting for xinwei to come and I'm gonna start on my theory hw! Bye!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
#878.
22 January. School has been on for two weeks, alot of struggling within myself because I had too much fun at camps during the holidays I still feel very attached to my workplace! Not that now I'm no longer attached to it but I NEED TO BUCK UP.
Need to start being on time and put in my 100%! seeing my friends setting their new year resolution as to start to be on time, I feel bad making her wait for me for an hour yesterday! :(
So my friends at ak are right. I can make school fun and awesome like how I can do in camps, so long as I put in my 100%!
Another two weeks and yuan enters NS. Time is flying real fast! In one month it's term break which means half a sem will be gone!!
Rachael you gotta buck up now!!!!
Okay so now im going to shower, practise piano and work on the present for yuan! Jiayou Rachael you can do this! Ak is waiting for you :))
On a side note, thanks so much Andrew Goh for empowering me time and time again when confidence fails me.
Need to start being on time and put in my 100%! seeing my friends setting their new year resolution as to start to be on time, I feel bad making her wait for me for an hour yesterday! :(
So my friends at ak are right. I can make school fun and awesome like how I can do in camps, so long as I put in my 100%!
Another two weeks and yuan enters NS. Time is flying real fast! In one month it's term break which means half a sem will be gone!!
Rachael you gotta buck up now!!!!
Okay so now im going to shower, practise piano and work on the present for yuan! Jiayou Rachael you can do this! Ak is waiting for you :))
On a side note, thanks so much Andrew Goh for empowering me time and time again when confidence fails me.
Saturday, January 08, 2011
#877.
AN AWESOME START TO THIS YEAR.
Such an irony how I would say this camp is awesome when I faced negativity in the camp like a bad EV or bad feedback from a teacher, but this camp really kickstarted my 2011 well!
(long reflection)
In 2010 I always had mirrors better than me and everytime I screwed up my mirror would be able to help me out and cover up for me. Learnt alot from my mirror Lims in this year. Woodlands ring primary showed me how much I had to learn and how much I wanted to make a difference in those kids' lives. Bukit panjang primary showed me how much more I could learn, and west spring sec showed me how much I could do to make a difference.
Throughout this few camps which I could do during the holidays, i watched and learnt but as much as they taught me alot and brought me to where I was on Sunday, this camp brought me even further and now I am typing this with a totally different feeling. The change is really great and I don't wanna stop learning.
The takeaways and learning while working in AKOE is like a slope. Definitely will learn something but the steepness of the slope would come in and for this camp, the slope was real steep.
Started off coach training feeling lousy because I was separated from my friends and I wanted to see how awesome they were at work. I wanted to work with them again and bond with them. So even though I feel distant and left out because they have so much to talk about live ops but I don't know what's going on and they don't understand what went on over at Outerspace, I'm sure there are many more opportunities as learning and bonding don't stop here!
So I was informed that I was the major 2 IC and that freaked me out. Totally. I have never been a major IC and I really don't know if I could do it! And being in charge with Gaz of 4 classes with only me and Gaz being thr experienced coaches, we had to teach the other 10 new coaches alot of stuff! Really freaked out so while the rest of the coaches were sleeping, fadz, Jeryn, and I had prata bought from Bukit batok and when they all went to sleep Jerrald and I stayed up writing all the debrief points we were going to use in out respective camps. I was totally not prepared to screw up the camp and myself in front of the new coaches! So together with Louis and mahesh's loud snores I worked on the points till 5am and I totally didn't sleep at all. Bad start to the camp man totally!!!
We all went to school in the morning, my heart was still feeling a little lousy but I knew I had to feel good about this camp. I knew that if I did my best I can also make this camp awesome!
So as much as my goal was to make a difference in my campers' lives, on the first day I realised my goals changed. My new goal was to make a difference to my new coaches and to give them alot of learning points to take back so that their next camp would be awesome!
The coaches posed me many many questions and I was totally bf-ed. I knew I had to come up with the solutions fast and I shouldn't bother the apds with such questions. I had to be capable of helping them. I managed to come up with learning points for my coaches to takeaway, proud of myself!
As much as I have learnt, I also learnt how much more I have to learn, totally sucks to know school is starting and I can't do camps till May. But I'm gonna grab any chance I have to go help out! :D
Back to the camp, yuan did live ops and I'm so proud of him! He really surpassed our expectations and I'm glad he gave us a chance to make a difference to him.
Throughout these 4 days I only had 3 hours of sleep! On the last day I left early to go to school to take a test, damn lucky I passed, and then bought bubble tea back for some of them and went back for debrief. The rest of the guys then came and broke camp and then we waited for Ridtz and the rest to come, so Noel and I waited for their debrief before going for lunch, and by the time they ended it was time for dinner HAHAHAAHA
So despite our shagginess yuan brought me to lavender for pig stomach soup!! :D like after so long we finally had a chance to eat that! Through this camp and separation with him, I realised our relationship was stronger than I expected. Really feel so blessed to have him with me!
Most importantly I want to thank sab and Andrew for always being there for me! They really taught me alot, especially during our htht I really appreciate it.
Okay I spent a long time on this, time to get prepared for granny's birthday celebration and this time yuan is coming with me :))
Suspended reality sucks :/
Such an irony how I would say this camp is awesome when I faced negativity in the camp like a bad EV or bad feedback from a teacher, but this camp really kickstarted my 2011 well!
(long reflection)
In 2010 I always had mirrors better than me and everytime I screwed up my mirror would be able to help me out and cover up for me. Learnt alot from my mirror Lims in this year. Woodlands ring primary showed me how much I had to learn and how much I wanted to make a difference in those kids' lives. Bukit panjang primary showed me how much more I could learn, and west spring sec showed me how much I could do to make a difference.
Throughout this few camps which I could do during the holidays, i watched and learnt but as much as they taught me alot and brought me to where I was on Sunday, this camp brought me even further and now I am typing this with a totally different feeling. The change is really great and I don't wanna stop learning.
The takeaways and learning while working in AKOE is like a slope. Definitely will learn something but the steepness of the slope would come in and for this camp, the slope was real steep.
Started off coach training feeling lousy because I was separated from my friends and I wanted to see how awesome they were at work. I wanted to work with them again and bond with them. So even though I feel distant and left out because they have so much to talk about live ops but I don't know what's going on and they don't understand what went on over at Outerspace, I'm sure there are many more opportunities as learning and bonding don't stop here!
So I was informed that I was the major 2 IC and that freaked me out. Totally. I have never been a major IC and I really don't know if I could do it! And being in charge with Gaz of 4 classes with only me and Gaz being thr experienced coaches, we had to teach the other 10 new coaches alot of stuff! Really freaked out so while the rest of the coaches were sleeping, fadz, Jeryn, and I had prata bought from Bukit batok and when they all went to sleep Jerrald and I stayed up writing all the debrief points we were going to use in out respective camps. I was totally not prepared to screw up the camp and myself in front of the new coaches! So together with Louis and mahesh's loud snores I worked on the points till 5am and I totally didn't sleep at all. Bad start to the camp man totally!!!
We all went to school in the morning, my heart was still feeling a little lousy but I knew I had to feel good about this camp. I knew that if I did my best I can also make this camp awesome!
So as much as my goal was to make a difference in my campers' lives, on the first day I realised my goals changed. My new goal was to make a difference to my new coaches and to give them alot of learning points to take back so that their next camp would be awesome!
The coaches posed me many many questions and I was totally bf-ed. I knew I had to come up with the solutions fast and I shouldn't bother the apds with such questions. I had to be capable of helping them. I managed to come up with learning points for my coaches to takeaway, proud of myself!
As much as I have learnt, I also learnt how much more I have to learn, totally sucks to know school is starting and I can't do camps till May. But I'm gonna grab any chance I have to go help out! :D
Back to the camp, yuan did live ops and I'm so proud of him! He really surpassed our expectations and I'm glad he gave us a chance to make a difference to him.
Throughout these 4 days I only had 3 hours of sleep! On the last day I left early to go to school to take a test, damn lucky I passed, and then bought bubble tea back for some of them and went back for debrief. The rest of the guys then came and broke camp and then we waited for Ridtz and the rest to come, so Noel and I waited for their debrief before going for lunch, and by the time they ended it was time for dinner HAHAHAAHA
So despite our shagginess yuan brought me to lavender for pig stomach soup!! :D like after so long we finally had a chance to eat that! Through this camp and separation with him, I realised our relationship was stronger than I expected. Really feel so blessed to have him with me!
Most importantly I want to thank sab and Andrew for always being there for me! They really taught me alot, especially during our htht I really appreciate it.
Okay I spent a long time on this, time to get prepared for granny's birthday celebration and this time yuan is coming with me :))
Suspended reality sucks :/
Sunday, January 02, 2011
#876.
Woahhhhh it's 2011 already! Hi 2011!
2010 was a good and a bad year. I remember 2010 started out badly, I was totally not looking forward to it but time really flies a year has passed!!! It was a year filled with unhappiness, difficult decisions, risks, and really, faith and trust that things would find a way to work out.
Arrival of the new year was awesome, spent 4 hours at marina square Mac playing daidee and monopoly deal! Damn fun and yeah after that was squeezing, fireworks, squeezing and more squeezing.
Funny fact, everytime ever since nomadic black!, when we see someone jaywalking Yuan and I would naturally think and say: Orh hor! Jaywalk minus five stars!!! No integrity!!!!! HAHAHAHA what difference I make to them! :> it's like MXE teaching me not to use the word t-r-y! It got stuck so MXE, well done k :)) HAHA
So 2010 was filled with school, withdrawal, contract signing, new school, new responsibilities and probably one of the most important things now, difference making.
Life at akoe is awesome. When I say awesome it really doesn't stop at awesome. The place which pushes me out of my comfort zone, the place which forces me to change for the better and the place which makes me happy when I make a difference and upsets me when I don't. You probably have no idea how much tears I shed when I realise I failed to make a difference. Hopefully one day these people whom I think I failed will not fail me.
Oh and also the place which brings me to many many difference makers who also make awesome friends. Friends who will clean each other's tears, hug one another when our heartstrings are tugged, friends who laugh at and with each other, friends who never fail to zeng each other HAHAHA
And of course the rocky road of love and life.
Those uncertainties, those unhappiness, those confused and stressful moments, those insecurity, comes with all the happiness, laughter, love, appreciation, many more to say but I just wanna say it hasn't been easy, the journey was tough but we made it through.
So what I wanna say to you, yuan, watching the fireworks with you don't just mean the video taking or the amount of taxes it cost our parents and friends, but it signifies the celebration of our hard work, our determination and our perseverance. All the sacrifices we made for each other, all the fights we had with each other and ourselves, it really hasn't been easy and WE MADE IT.
So the arrival of 2011 only reminds me that if I could do it in 2010, I can do it in 2011. Yes I can! And if I can't, then I must!
MXE is coming home in 12 days Omg I can't wait missed her so very much!!!!
2010 was a good and a bad year. I remember 2010 started out badly, I was totally not looking forward to it but time really flies a year has passed!!! It was a year filled with unhappiness, difficult decisions, risks, and really, faith and trust that things would find a way to work out.
Arrival of the new year was awesome, spent 4 hours at marina square Mac playing daidee and monopoly deal! Damn fun and yeah after that was squeezing, fireworks, squeezing and more squeezing.
Funny fact, everytime ever since nomadic black!, when we see someone jaywalking Yuan and I would naturally think and say: Orh hor! Jaywalk minus five stars!!! No integrity!!!!! HAHAHAHA what difference I make to them! :> it's like MXE teaching me not to use the word t-r-y! It got stuck so MXE, well done k :)) HAHA
So 2010 was filled with school, withdrawal, contract signing, new school, new responsibilities and probably one of the most important things now, difference making.
Life at akoe is awesome. When I say awesome it really doesn't stop at awesome. The place which pushes me out of my comfort zone, the place which forces me to change for the better and the place which makes me happy when I make a difference and upsets me when I don't. You probably have no idea how much tears I shed when I realise I failed to make a difference. Hopefully one day these people whom I think I failed will not fail me.
Oh and also the place which brings me to many many difference makers who also make awesome friends. Friends who will clean each other's tears, hug one another when our heartstrings are tugged, friends who laugh at and with each other, friends who never fail to zeng each other HAHAHA
And of course the rocky road of love and life.
Those uncertainties, those unhappiness, those confused and stressful moments, those insecurity, comes with all the happiness, laughter, love, appreciation, many more to say but I just wanna say it hasn't been easy, the journey was tough but we made it through.
So what I wanna say to you, yuan, watching the fireworks with you don't just mean the video taking or the amount of taxes it cost our parents and friends, but it signifies the celebration of our hard work, our determination and our perseverance. All the sacrifices we made for each other, all the fights we had with each other and ourselves, it really hasn't been easy and WE MADE IT.
So the arrival of 2011 only reminds me that if I could do it in 2010, I can do it in 2011. Yes I can! And if I can't, then I must!
MXE is coming home in 12 days Omg I can't wait missed her so very much!!!!
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