#409.

And i've decided to cast that pair of heels aside,
wear something else that's less painful,


but im still not throwing that pair of heels away.

:)

#408.

I miss your cologne smell baby :(
and it's still smelling strong on my hands. :)

Today was spent at this HIGH CLASS area,
and our dress code was totally 'OUT'.
Leonard was in T-shirt, bermudas and SLIPPERS,
while Erica and i was in shorts.

Went to Recruit Express, had our fair share of oogling, LOL.
Did our registration and blah blah,
and was contemplating whether to meet mummy and get a free ride home at 5.30,
or wait for Jansen ol' boy till 6.15.

decided to wait for him,
so we head off to Clarke Quay for Haagen Dazs,
reason being, i was sure there was one there,
and i missed that place!

Jansen ol' boy then told me he hadnt had lunch,
and wouldnt be having dinner,
hence i bought him Tiramisu from TCC.
I told him, th Tiramisu i make would taste better than TCC's,
he dont believe.
hahahha.

After separation,
we then headed home.
and that's how i wasted my day.
HEH.

we're still gonna head there next week,
hopefully with some interviews,
or we'll just sit there and look at those handsome, smart, decent angmos. hahahhahah.



ah yes, this letter really makes my day man!
received it 2 days ago,
and sadly they didnt put th amt i'd receive. hahhaha.

Alright, presenting today's pictures while i was out,. :D



Maybank Tower! Lol.



we totally dont belong to that place with this kind of outfit. hahaha.



okay, while looking for Haagen Dazs at Clarke Quay,
we found this 'Mini' Haagen Dazs. LOL!
couldnt stop laughing,
i bet th guy knew that something was going on. HAHAHAH.



well, we obviously found th BIGGER Haagen Dazs. hahah.



FONDUE! i couldnt wait till christmas. hahahaha.






evidence!
watch out Jansen ol' boy,
this is how much it'll cost! HAHAHHA.



the x'mas tree outside Central! :) :) :)










kudos to the loving couple! xD



see what i mean? omg, i soooo envy them la.



the lovely mini x'mas trees within Central.
LOADS OF THEM LA, i saw like a total of 8+ of them can.







Presenting the Deliveryman of the year:
RACHAEL; for delivering the best Tiramisu from TCC.
LOL



OMFG, dun play play.
our dressing could only be compared to the CLEANERS at FULLERTON HOTEL.
HAHAHAHAHA.
'EVEN TH BELLBOYS DRESS SMARTER AND HANDSOMER AND NICER THAN US.'



okay, the rest of the pictures presents Aaron Christopher Jansen.
Only Erica is capable of such pictures,
and it's made me realise HOW SHORT I AM!
pftbh.
















"All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love."
-Leo Tolstoy

And i do understand what you were trying to say baby.

#407.

I just got reminded of something,
which i thought of posting.


today, i suffered blisters again.
and needless to say,
it was because of the heels i wear.

well, i've always had such problems,
colleagues tell me to just bandage my feet.
LOL.


I knew this pair of heels would give me problems.
But i still wore them.

it's kinda like...
i know HE aint the guy for me.
he's far from ideal boyf.
i dont know if i do want him or can accept him,
but i dont like myself when im overly stubborn,
knowing he's not suited,
but still insist to try it out.

the metaphor is the pair of heels.


till now,
im still refusing to discard this pair of heels.





tell me what should i do?.

#406.

Looking for a job is tough,
Looking for a admin job is tough,
Looking for a job at Maybank is tough,
Looking for a job near Maybank is very tough,
Looking for a job is VERY VERY VERY VERY TOUGH.

i feel like a retard,
looking for a job despite having one!

im tired man,
have to search in and out,
high and low,

but jansen ol' boy aint helping me man.

AHHHH,
i wanna sleep man!

#405.

THe process of donut making..








I know i look like im calling for help,
but th person i was talking to definitely know NUTS. hahhahha.
and yes, th person on th other line was Mr Aaron Christopher Jansen.
WAHAHAHHA.



and thanks to his distraction,
u used th tablespoon marking instead of the teaspoon!



i remember getting pissed off with auntie aldy. LOL



this looks like utter shit la.
erica! u should have just taken th second attempt one. hahha



this is hard work man,
i was trying my best not to make it look like shit. HAHHHA.



apparently it didnt work. LOL



this was meant for th choco slaze,



but didnt use it in th end cuz we were too lazy to boil and cook it again. HAHHA.



oh yes oh yes,
th whole second part was skipped, cuz erica th photographer was busy playing my piano. HAHAHHA.
i look unglam here, pls hurry scroll down. HHAAHHAHA.
th sugar on my donut was FALLING OFF!!!


this girl scared fat, refused to advertise my donut. HAHHA.



and TADA! persenting th best donuts in the world!
well, it's best, better than donut factory becuz it's made out of love. :)

#404.

Does this look nice?

I hope he'll like it,
and the THIRD attempt is gonna be better than DONUT FACTORY.
HAHAHHAHA.


supposed to succeed on the first attempt,
but "DUNNO WHAT HAPPENED",
I FAILED!.

and MISTER JANSEN HAD THE CHEEK TO LAUGH AT ME!
when he just needs to sit in his office and wait for my donuts.
pftbh.

but because i had to prove that i could do it,
i sacrificed going down to raffles place,
and pool with eugene.

am going to take a shower and head down to TM with th rest.
TATA!

#403.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIKHANG! :)

#402.

will you please enlighten me?

#401.

MY FINGER IS HURTING DAMN BADLY
as im typing now.

today was an 'accident-prone' day.
Aaron suggested we find a place which has an empty area around th table,
since i might just fall off anytime. -.-

after ONE YEAR,..
i finally did a registration.
and the name was LER ....... sth.
i typed, LEE ....... sth.
F7 the thing,
and was typing parents' particulars,
i started to wonder why the surname of the father and the child is NOT THE SAME!
i really went WTF,
and rita changed it for me.
OMG,
i thought she'd tick me off or sth.
but, she didnt.

second accident,
i dont know what went into me today,
felt REAL EMO.
i didnt engage myself with the rest of the conversation,
and ugh.
i dun know. just felt like shit.
and this customer came to pay for the fees and all,
and so happen my phone vibrated,
and for some reason or another,
the drawer wasnt closed.
so rita saw the phone vibrate,
and said; no sms-ing when working.
karen immediately closed the drawer.
was disturbed, and distracted,
and i didnt even notice th nets transaction was declined.
i still clicked F7,
and end up the school system printed th receipt and all.
tried many times,
and still declined.
she then went to draw money,
while we void that receipt.
was feeling real lousy after that.

and this indian customer really pissed the shit out of me man.

one parent came real late,
didnt even register in the class,
wanted to pay for coaching fee,
got me so confused.
was supposed to do closing,
but because of her,
we couldnt close.
so i went to lock the doors and checked studios and blah blah.
checking of studio went real smoothly today,
wen miin and i were real happy,
thought can leave earlier,
and i was still thinking of where to go while waiting for mister JANSEN.
went back to the cashier,
then realised there was a problem, a BIG problem.
the nets and cash didnt tally,
and till now i still cannot figure out why there was a problem.
fretting over what to write in the summary,
fretting over whether HQ would understand,
and herbert wasnt there to help us because of the 'Asian Beat'.

finally decided to wait for karine before deciding what to write.
IM SOOOO DEAD.

i then started to roll the audit papers,
and CUT MYSELF on the finger.
till now it's still so blardy pain la.

roll roll roll,
nearing the end,
aaron jansen called,
and he was ready!
i told him i wasnt,
and he went suaning me.
hung up,
and MY FINGERS SLIPPED.
had to re roll the damn thing,
and told christine this is just soo not the day.

met up with aaron after that,
initially felt super damn hungry while checking studios,
but after that lost all appetite.
we then decided to go to subway,
to have their cookies and compare my cookies with theirs.

spent a long time deciding what to eat,
and he told me to tell her what veggie i didnt want,
but changed his mind and told me to tell what i wanted.
LOL.
and his reaction was real cute when the girl asked, lettuce?
he went " OH NONO!, no lettuce, no tomatoes, no peppe-ro-ni, no ........"
we then broke out laughing.
the girl was like huh, so that's all?
hhahahhahahha.

then sat down,
and as he drank the coke light,
eugene called.
so i talked to him and blah blah,
put the phone down,
he said: "th phone is nice."
i heard, "the coke is nice."
so i replied, "all coke taste the same."
and he heard me say, "all cock taste the same."
really couldnt stop laughing man.

and he said,
the way u eat at subway and order food,
is like going to donut factory and telling th person there,
donut without donut. just chocolate.
and this reminded me of hock.
LOLOLOLOL!
"Auntie, ice kachang without kachang."
HHAHAHHAHHAHA!.

talked alot with each other,
talked about work, school, whatever.
really missed him man.
though meeting him did make me feel happier,
but the appetite was still lost. LOL.

no fondue today,
fondue is confirmed on christmas.
YAY YAY YAY.
hahahaha.

Ah yes,
and it's only till now,
that i believe leandro has a child!.
hahahaha.

anyways,
im feeling super tired,
my eyes are hurting,
my finger is hurting even more,
and my head is longing for my pillow.
so toodles! :D


"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."
-Mother Teresa

#400.

Yesterday was the first day i went back to yamaha.
Up till now,
i still dont like the idea of going back.
i shouldnt have, maybe.

anyway,
IDEAL BOYF IS BACK AS WELL!.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

besides ideal boyf,
the others are gone.
ronald, aaron, SIGH.
i soooo miss them.


Finally found aaron's contact,
for i lost it together with my phone.
Caught up with each other for awhile,
and he promised me this!




but that's secondary.
the primary thing is that i SUPER MISS HIM.

thankfully TMY will be hosting the 'Asian Beat',
otherwise i wont have the chance to see him again.
LOL.

went to the bank with leandro ytd,
and while going out to buy felicia's curry puff,
i bumped into wanjing, minhui and wc.
was kinda happy when i saw them.
kind of miss them too.
HAHAHHA.

and then,
mr azhar came to yamaha at night,
was SUPER SHOCKED.
and surprisingly,
HE RECOGNISED ME!.
hahahhaah.



thinking of work tmr turns me off.
i've to cover up those damn holes in the studio,
and it's those itchy fingers' fault.
INSTEAD OF HAVING LESSON,
go poke holes into the wall.
MAKE MY LIFE DIFFICULT ONLY.
(**$&*^(&!^&$*^

and then have to change the teachers' pigeon holes' name tags.
and that reminds me,
kelsy's gonna be so disappointed
when she sees me working for rita and karine again.
hahaha.

gonna buy chocolate again,
because mummy LOVED the cookies i did on tue!
HAHAHHA.

tata,

"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."
-Audrey Hepburn

#399.

All has come; and all has gone.

I looked back at my life,
realised how much i've changed through the years,
and many memories which i havent had time to think of came back to me.

As i was clearing my stuff up,
i realised how MUCH amaths papers i've done with mr siow.
minus all those notebooks,
those loose papers were enough to make 5 foolscap reams.

I dont know if it's just me,
or everyone's facing the same stuff:
I cant bear to throw my stuff away.
I've kept practically everything,
and it's back to square one.
still those piles and boxes of books and papers.

Thinking about these few years,

BIG Thank-yous to:

Leonard, Erica, Felicia, Varian, Erdie, etc..,

for giving me the chance to teach you guys maths.
I'm not sure if i managed to help,
neither am i sure if your grades will improve.
It's been great joy helping you guys,
and whether you appreciate it or not is secondary.
I really hope you guys will do well. :)


Wanjing and Hockhao,

for standing by me throughout the year.
I really appreciate the help, the encouragement,
and of course the competition.
I hope the competition between us is healthy.
Love you guys! :D


Eugene and Jinhwee,

i dont know where i stand,
whether im a spare tyre,
or a laughing stock, or a clown,
or a real appreciated friend.
But i do know, you guys mean quite alot to me.


Afeeq, Varian, Syafiq, Erdie,

The little time spent with you guys during the times before exams
are gonna stay with me for the rest of my life.
Without you guys,
i might have gone mad from the studying.
Those 'Tallulah' days, those slacking and all,..
Had i known this would have happened between the two of us,
I wouldnt keep rejecting going out with u guys at night,
for i might have slightly more time with u guys.
I'll miss you guys. Really.


Zengting, Beverley, Tingting, Constance,

Time spent with you all during the sec3 days were the best of the best.
No one prolly played as much as us.
Till now i still cannot forget those days.
I really miss us all together man.


Of course not forgetting many more,
Sigh,
I SOOOOO miss secondary school days.




Prom came and went,
though with the deco and all,
many of us went in and first thought came was, THE BIG O's.
HHAAHAHA.

pictures are at various cameras,
so i'll probably post only after i get all the pictures.


gonna start work at yamaha in two days,
decided not to teach YET,
since i cannot commit to it yet,
and i REALLY HOPE my ideal boyf comes back too.
:D :D :D :D :D

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."
-Fredrick Koeing

#398.

I NEED A HI-FI SET THAT CAN PLAY DEATH METAL AT CERTAIN TIMES.

supposed to meet hazel at 8 to bring her to the dermatologist,
and i woke up only at 8.30.
went to outram and all,
then went to simei to get errands done,
bought colouring books for justin and girly,
and OH!. i soooooooooooooo miss the both of them. :( :( :(

changed my blogskin,
and hock says it looks like some baby room.
LOL.


interview over,
performance coming soon.
DAMN,
i havent gotten ready!.
i needa start sleeping early and practise more piano.
period.






:D



"Everything in nature is lyrical in its ideal essence, tragic in its fate, and comic in its existence."
-George Santayana

#397.

THE 'O's ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!! :D :D :D :D



have been doing alot of thinking,
and have started missing school,
missing the times with my teachers and friends.



MR SIOW:
a teacher i respect the most in my entire life.
since 4 years ago,
i became his student thru his teacher, paul.
life there initially was real bad.
it was such a torture,
he once told mummy not to waste his time and her money.
but luckily he didnt give up on me.
thru the years, he's groomed me to become his elite,
and all my success in math belongs to him.
over the years,
my tutor became my teacher and now a mentor to me.
i'll miss lessons with him,
i'll miss those di-siaoing,
i'll miss those laughters at his house.
he's my aspiration no.1! x)


MR SEET:
the second teacher whom i respect the most.
though i knew him only this year,
his overwhelming helpfulness and selflessness has made him my idol.
his strongest subject is maths,
but he still tries his best to help us in english.
he still spend his saturday mornings willingly,
without expecting anything in return.
he's my aspiration no.2 man!


MR CHANG:
the teacher who never fails to help me,
the teacher who never fails to solve my problems.
i'd have lost alot if not for his help,
but i'd have lost even more if i didnt even know him. :)


MS JUNAINAH:
3 years ago,
i thought she was the most boring teacher i ever encountered.
now,
i think she's the most interesting teacher i've ever encounted.
i sooooooo miss her history and ss lessons.
aww DAMN!.


MS CHUA:
a chance encounter,
if not for ms ju's absense,
i wouldnt have known such a nice lady. :)


MRS SIOW:
a chance encounter,
and a bad encounter.
filled with misunderstandings when we first knew each other,
but im glad our relationship improved over the 2 years.
a teacher filled with humour, i'll never forget. :)


of course there are many more,
but im seriously too tired.
legs are aching from walking up and down orchard road with eugene & jinhwee.


and im uberly lazy to go for th red camp!.


"Love in the mind sees Love in the world.
Love in the world means Love in the mind."

#396.

I NEARLY DIED OF A SEVERE HEART ATTACK.

Thank you uh, mentor cum tutor cum teacher.

HAHAHHAHA.

#395.

I need a LONG LONG LONG break.

#394.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BROTHER! (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHINING!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TSZ KEI!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NAZRETH!



lol,
i just realised they're all belated.
HAHHAHHA.

#393.

I AINT YOUR BITCH!. (aFeeq! LOOK. HAHHAAHA. just as you said. :D :D )




get this clear:
YES, indeed you didnt ask me to give you those notes.
but EVEN SO,
you didnt have to use it as a tool make a mockery out of me.

i should have given it to felicia, leonard, erica, vae,
ANYONE.
anyone who will appreciate it.


i do not expect you to thank me,
or feel appreciative about it.
but i thought the notes which i spent so much time on deserved some basic respect.

IF, i spent the time on the notes,
on my combined humanities or science,
i bet my grades can further improve
and i dont even need to be risking the edusave scholarship award.

thinking back,
i dun even know why the hell i did the notes for you.
yes,
doing the notes do not require much effort on my side.
but it doesnt mean that you can TAKE ADVANTAGE of it.

have you any idea,
I DUN EVEN NEED TO GO READ MY EMATHS TYS,
TEXT BOOKS and stuff anymore?

and i still had to carry those heavy assessments books home and to school for u,
and the only comment you made was:"wah, so heavy."

really THANKS you know,
i thought i deserved better than that stupid comment.

and i thought it was REALLY cockless on your side,
to pick a fight with me,
refuse to apologise to me,
and go beg some bitch to take you in on the last minute.
i would LOVE TO SEE HOW YOU'RE GONNA PASS YOUR O LEVELS.

if one day you decide to beg me,
when you realise you failed your O's,
be assured that i will take you in,
not because i want you,
but because i LOVE CHALLENGES.
i love to see myself make a failure succeed.
and yes,
YOU ARE THAT FAILURE.


i know i sound like a bitch,
and i know i sound insulting.
but PLEASE REST ASSURED,
those words you said to me that day,
was FAR MORE INSULTING aND ASSURING.


i would like to thank you once again,
for letting me see what kind of a bastard you are.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.


and lastly,
you're the LOUSIEST LOSER I'VE EVER SEEN.

#392.

TIRED TIRED TIRED.



amaths paper 2 was alright,
not exactly difficult,
but was real irritating because almost every question was so damn tedious.
and cambridge is real dumb.
25% of the marks come from proving.
as long as u prove it, 20 marks is yours.
and that's 1/4 of the paper.
REAL CHEAP SEH.


physics,
terribly easy.
easy until it scares the shit out of me.
i hope there wont be much moderation.

ah yes.
HISTORY!.
COLD WAR CAME OUT!!
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
i literally laughed during the paper,
felicia was telling me she saw me laugh and smile over the paper.
HAHHA.
until now im still super duper happy over that la can.

today's music paper was okay i guess.
i hope i can at least pass man.

has been feeling tired since the paper just now,
feeling sick, tired, lethargic, whatever.

I SEEM TO HAVE LOST THE MOOD TO BLOG.
feel UBERLY SIAN NOW CAN.
i want entertainment!!!!

mummy got me 4 free tickets to some korean cultural dance performance,
and it's so freaking difficult to find ppl who enjoys such thing.
some fairy, please change it to movie tickets and it'll be so much easier.
HAHAHAH.

i hope NI comes out on monday.
HAHAHHA. i bet all of us will jump for joy man.

okay, im gonna hit the sack and mug for SS TMR.

i hope mr siow marks that paper,
so i can know my results.
*cross fingers*


"The heart does not need coffee. The heart needs friends. Coffee is just an excuse."
-Old Turkish saying