#887.

On my way to svf now, had only a crazy 2 and half hours nap! Anyway I slept at five when lol, yuan was supposed to wake up at five. He texted me at 7am to tell me he's going for the field camp already!

Though I was only half awake, I felt a tinge of 'can't bear to let you go' feeling. But I know he'll complete it!

Can't wait to see him but then would be end of study break D: part of me don't want study break to end ! I could really get used to not going to school for 9am lessons srsly...

Okay I'm gonna catch some sleep!

#886.

Yuan called me. and i broke down. the history assignment is really driving me nuts. But everything yuan said in the short phone conversation really empowered me so much. I'm really amazed how much he could cheer me up with that simple few words.

He made me wonder why the hell i even felt insecure about us for the past two weeks. He just totally made me realise whatever i was thinking was totally uncalled for. And he really made me miss him so much at the moment. It's like such moments i really want to hug him and tell him how much i love him. Well i still did la of course but i really can't wait to see him. this time round we're going to get it right. :)

It's 3.40am, i'm about 75% completed with the essay, dont know what i'm writing but i really just wanna come out with the essay and that's it.

Dont think i will catch much sleep since i'm meeting cass at 9am at bishan!

Gonna get muhd nor a cake and we're gonna throw him into postman walk so exciting! But i'm going to catch some sleep later and at svf! Seriously need to sleep because i'll be stuck with like a test on tuesday, and teaching on thursday before yuan returns on friday! Awesome much.

Looking forward to my first lesson with chubby!

Yuan's auntie wants me to go choose piano with her, for nathan! which day should i arrange it to be? And it's kinda exciting cause i'll be like going out with her for the first time, without yuan. Just like how i was alone with his mom and aunt at tekong. Lucky zhenye was there!

Okay back to my essay, goodnight!

#885.

I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman,

“If you miss me. you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. there is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s car.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. in some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored. Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see. But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal and deliberate means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it’s flawed There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

“This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

- Ashton Kutcher

#884.

so tempted to go over to tumblr!

it's study break, how fast it's half a sem gone alr.
but now i'm like stuck with a stupid essay which is so bloody hard to churn out.
but i have to get it done because tomorrow i'll be going down to SVF!
Come on rach, if you can't then you must!

Pretty awesome two days spent with yuan, actually only about 24 hours to be exact but nevertheless i still had fun.

Yesterday was spent slacking and making him food which i promised every book out will be different. Funny promise i feel like a housewife but then again i really find joy in making food for him! I like how he praises my culinary skills :)

He had dinner at my place, before we spent quality time and then he went home to sleep and came over in the morning. He left most of his stuff here and he was surprised i didnt check out the cool stuff! well i only helped him to wash his bottle and wore his funny cap HAHA!

We then spent more quality time together and i made him breakfast. poor yuan was feeling sick but he sacrificed resting time to be with me. feel really touched :')
then helped him to pack his stuff, attempted to fold his sleeve for him but damn fail and i ended up painting my nails while he folded the complicated sleeve HAHA

Then went for a late lunch, walked around to look at hamster cages and then we went back home so that he could get his stuff, get dressed and i really like the way he wear his stuffs i feel so proud of my man!

Went to pasir ris with him, and he bought me an army bag from that army shop there, for me to bring to camps! how sweet of him right, he complained that everytime we buy a bag to share i end up using it and he doesnt get to use it BUT it's not my fault! I offered to let him carry it but he claims it's gay! Well so who chose it in the first place? :)

Okay tomorrow yuan will be going outfield, wont be contacting me for the entire week till thursday night maybe and he'll be booking out on friday! kinda excited to meet him alr but it's a lvl results :/

i hope he'll be well by tomorrow, so that he can complete this field camp safely and happily, i have faith in my man, he won't screw things up! This is really why i always feel so damn proud of my awesome boyfriend. can't wait to give him a big bear hug!

His birthday is coming in 20 days, already making plans and preparing his birthday present i hope he'll like his card!

and why am i here? cause i really feel so damn crappy about the history essay and i need to release my stress and he hasn't called me. i. need. encouragement.

#883.

No matter where life takes us, you can be sure I'll be there for you.

Even if your results isn't good, you wanna be a sailor, a pilot, an engineer, an officer, I will support you all the way.

As long as you have a goal and you don't give up on yourself. I will support you in whatever you want to do.

Thats my promise to you :)

#882.

Yessssarrrr! It's Friday!! Two more days and yuan will book out!

Valentine's day was spent in school, I fell sick in the afternoon but I still went to watch black swan with the girls! Didn't regret going despite my body dying.
Was feeling soo terrible on the way home, was really wishing yuan was around to send me home. If he could he would I'm sure.

So when I finally reached home, I saw this on the table!


Totally caught me by surprise!!! Yuan got someone to deliver the chocolates to me and even got that person to design a card for me. But that person got my name Spelt wrongly HAHAHAH!

So... The epic fail I found out was kk, since he lived so near me and he knew where my place was and the previous night yuan asked for his number.

Totally caught me off-guard I was least expecting it! Yuan never fails to amaze me seriously. Felt so loved and I wish he was here I would run up to him and give him a mega hug!

Really can't wait for yuan to boooook ouuttttttt!!!!

Yuan has already planned what we are going to do on the day he books out I can't wait !

Ok time to wake up and shower and paint my nails bye!

#881.

I went to this blog page, and listening to this song makes me miss you even more. i miss the slow walks we had from my place to the bus stop, with this song playing you sent me back home from the bus stop just because we couldn't bear to part with each other.

Miss you so much cheeky round. dont know why i didn't feel it yesterday, i was still so confident and happy and all but now i feel like a different person. A person who would tear when you called and said you love me.

Today when i received your text i was really surprised and i was grinning from ear to ear. Really can't wait for you to book out! Already looking at the recipe books and deciding what to make you on the 21st!

Okay i need to stop being emo! Gonna continue to be a happy girl and look forward to your return! There is too much about you for me to love. I wonder why i haven't seen such abundance of goodness in you in the past.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, really can't wait for your booking out date to come!

Oh. Did i mention i have many awesome girlfriends around? I must have been blind cause i didn't notice it till this year.
I'm beginning to see more light in this world.

2011 is gonna continue to be awesome! :)